SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 773.
Looking from the outside it's understandable that you want to be feminized sissy cuckold is terrified at being ousted or caught out as what it needs and desires seems so extreme and deviant that it would end up a figure of derision, sneering disgust and hilarity!
Ummm? well is all that not rather the point of being a Feminized Sissy Cuckold?
The crazy thing is though that the want to be Feminized Sissy Cuckold more often than not when caught out will suffer turmoil not only in being ousted but having to cope with reactions that he had never mulled over coming from the exposee!
The simple fact is the females around you already know there is something deeply wrong about you in the male sense so when it comes out that you’re a want to be Feminized sissy cuckold all the pieces of the jigsaw suddenly fall into place and instead of screaming rejection many sissy cuckolds find that the woman or women (because believe me the news about you will soon spread far and wide with the gossip!) will be of interested acceptance and you will be forced to spill your guts about ever kink and perversion you have.
Of course, you will cease to be seen in the eyes of all that know as a male, and you will be in a place where humiliation and shame becomes a staple part of your daily life and out of all this exposure a Cuckoldress will find you and take you under her heels.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 772.
I like every other feminized sissy cuckold love the supreme honor of watching my Cuckoldress fucking men to exhaustion! but I also understand there are times when a Sissy Cuckold is not allowed to watch or see the Cuckoldress love making.
This is because sometimes even a Cuckoldress wife wants privacy and one to one love making with a stud of her choice and then there is the fact that not every guy has the confidence to act in front of a watching feminized sissy cuckold and it may take time for the Cuckoldress wife to instill that confidence in the guy.
Thanks to the internet and the mass of Cuckold porn out there more able men know something of the Cuckoldress lifestyle when they meet one and so many more are willing to fuck the woman in front of her sissy cuckold.
Sissy Cuckolds can also get deeply thrilled by remote viewing that some couples set up so sissy cuckold can watch its wife having sex in secret or Sissy Cuckold may only be allowed to listen to the sounds of fucking so having to imagine till told later what a slut its wife has been.
For myself I have experienced all scenarios bar one which I have always craved and that if what is known as the Cuckoldresses bed with a cage built underneath for her feminized sissy cuckold to be locked in so it's right under its copulating wife and lovers!

1st date at your home? She grabs my face, sticks her tongue in my mouth, spits in my open mouth three or four times. She pushes me to my knees, lifts her skirt/dress. I worship her toes and spike heeled sandals. I lick and nibble her hose covered legs until I reach her cock then I suck her like my life depends on her cum for me to survive. After she cums I suck her back to hardness and she gently takes my virgin ass.

I'm a man...
I tell her I'm her Daddy.....
I wear the pants.......
I'm the boss.....
She calls me master.....
She drinks my cum.....
She offers me her ass....
She submits to me....
She is my slave......
I can kick her out of my life anytime I choose to.....
I don't have to see her if I don't want to....
I can ignore her flirts...
I can resist her touch....
She's not in my head.....
I'm not getting hard when I think of her.....
When I'm alone I can stop jerking off thinking about her anytime I want to......
It's cute that she plays with my nipples......
It won't lead to anything else.....
I think it's OK to pinch my nipples as I jerk off thinking about her.....
It's OK that she has a cock, she's not touching me with that thing because I'm a masculine beer drinking man.....
I"m only with her because i want a fantasy fling.....
I only let her touch my ass to satisfy her curiosity......
It's normal for her to kiss me after I've cum in her mouth....
It was funny and cute as she rode my cock that she came on my chest and a little piss came out.....
It felt a little strange as she played with my nipples and rubbed her pee and cum into my skin.....
But that's her thing not mine....
It was a really strange flavor when she kissed me after licking her cum and piss from my chest and playfully drooled into my mouth.....
It's fun sometimes after I have cum she seems a little aggressive with her kissing....
I guess it's normal for me to open my mouth like a little starving bird lusting for her to spit i my mouth.....
I like when massages my back and shoulders......
I like how it feels when she rubs my legs and calf's......
It' seems weird she has a fascination about my ass cheeks.....
The other night her finger slipped into my ass....
I jumped and smacked her hand away.....
Her eyes teared up.....
she said she was sorry "it won't happen again Master" she said.....
The other night as she jerked me off while sucking my cock as she finger fucked herself....
After I came she lay down on my chest playfully licking my nipples and caressing my lips with the finger that was in her ass....
She smelled oddly sweet and I sucked her finger...
The other day as she sat on my cock-as I came she stuck her toe in my mouth and I sucked it like I was a baby.....
As we watched TV the other day sipping on some wine she took her wine glass and pissed in it then drank her own piss.....
Then she jumped on me and aggressively kissed me....
I was so hard...
Lately I've been letting her finger fuck me as she sucks my cock...
There's nothing that can come of this, is there????
She has been reading books on wine enemas and wants to experiment.....
I guess its OK...
We tried the wine enema, she did herself before I arrived (at least that what she told me), then she did me......AM I REALLY THE MASTER????PASSION My eyes water with each twist and pull of my nipples. I gently whimper as your cock enters me. I am confused as I look into the face of a woman and i am the one being fucked. With each thrust of YOUR cock into my bowels, You claim my soul. You make me yours to keep, with every gasping breath from your painted lips, you command me to open more to receive all you have as I am a receptor for your Gurl clitty offering. You are above me with my legs pinned over you shoulders. My mouth is open gasping at the mix of pain from my nipples and the burning pleasure in my man-ass. Your lips are parted as you howl with pleasure above me. Saliva drains from you lips deep into my throat. Between the lava that erupts from your cock and the GURL spit that drains from your lips. That perfect fluid combination of yours binds us together, both now and forever.I NEED A SPIKE HEELED GURL VAMPIREI have blood clots on my back, there are puncture wounds on the nape of my neck on both sides of my spinal columnMy ass leaking so much urine and gurl cum during the day I am forced to remain housebound and wear a butt-plug.I no desire for sex common generic yet I stay hard and horny.the touch of a woman makes me feel queasy, but looking at their clothing makes me feel sexy.My nipples are extremely sensitive and engorged.My cock is swollen and sore.I am not able to function at regular daytime functions, work, or any public affair.I sleep constantly during the day.I have explainable piercings.I awaken with a creamy substance in my mouth and my memories of the evening before are blurred and I am confused.I cry a lot.I hate being alone and I need someone to hold me.I will be owned by you and serve you.I am no longer a man in my mind....
Each night after our tryst you remind me of what my wife could never achieve that I will never touch a genetic female in a sexual way again.... I am forced by you to appear as a public master that lusts to be under you as you call me "Daddy"with your cum in my ass.
I don't mean to offend anyone in any way or form. This formatted letter I send out is my way to tell anyone completely about me at one time. I have found this to be easier for me to remember everything. I add different things to this as I learn them about myself as I am ever evolving.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 771.
It's always amazing to see how quickly women who decide to become more than just acquaintances or friends with a Feminized Sissy Cuckold start to push the biscuit in the things they inflict on the Sissy Cuckold.
At first, they are hesitant and a little unsure as to how far they can p[ush things even though the sissy cuckold has stated it will do as ordered?
Let’s face it the rational person will stop and think that the sissy does not really mean it?
But they soon find out that the Sissy Cuckold was not having a fantasy and in fact it will do as ordered and then the female really goes to town as she wants to see how utterly awful she can make things for the sissy cuckold from public humiliation to herself being in the most hideous filthy state of hygiene and after sex with the real men she sees.
And in many cases the worse she inflicts on the Sissy Cuckold the more she sees the love and adoration pouring out of sissy for her and that obedience and love makes her heart melt and a Cuckoldress love appears, and she realizes that she herself cannot go forward with a life without a Feminized Sissy Cuckold maid and partner.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 770
As a Feminized Sissy Cuckold who lives openly you must expect that some people are just not going to like who and what you are?
Which seems strange to me as we pose no threat to anyone as we are the most submissive of the submissive and the actual situation is that we as feminized sissy cuckolds are terrified of people not being confident or assertive enough to cope with any independent thoughts or ideas.
Funny it's women who come to understand this faster than the guys who seem threatened by us which is palpable a silly thought? or maybe the bad reaction is because there are so many guys out there who secretly want to be what we are and they put on a rage facade to show just how manly they are(not) I find that it's the cool calm and collected guys who are confident in their manliness who are at ease dealing with us Feminized sissy cuckolds knowing that we pose no threat as we are incapable of offering any sort of competition to him.
We really are what I have long termed as the third sex not men but not quite women either a soul caught in the nether world between out only option is to serve both women and their men dutifully in any way they demand!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 769.
The first cock I ever had to suck was that of my stepfathers and he had a truly mighty cock all leaking and veiny! it was no fun absolute abuse in fact and did terrible things to me that I bore for years?
The thing is I was not then when it happened dressed in any way although I was already doing tranny stuff, so he had no idea of what I was developing into.
It was only years later long after Mother's divorce from him and I was living in a flat in London that I was out shopping one day dressed in a department store when suddenly Bill was standing next to me as I was browsing through the hosiery department and he said my name and said he had been watching me for twenty minutes not absolutely sure it was me.
He invited me to go have a coffee with him and to be fair to him he also purchased the five pairs of luxury stockings I had in my shopping basket.
Over coffee we had it out with my accusing and laying rage on him for his abuse of me and his apologies and asking if it was him that caused me to be a transvestite to which I had to say he was not!
He of course was fascinated by my development into Carla and although I told him a lot, I did not mention Mother, her nylon-clad feet and letting me dress in her dirty tights and stuff.
I was stunned then when Bill had the nerve to ask for a date and was even more stunned when I heard myself saying ok!
All to soon this time properly attired I was in a hotel room with him after a meal and a night out my red painted lips around his huge cock sucking like a whore his excitement in overdrive after I had told him my need to be a sissy cuckold!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 768.
Away in Warwick for a couple of days to see The Stranglers at the castle so of course as usual when I visit a place, I have gone to sample the talents of a prostitute that I sourced from an escort site.
This visit to Suzie has been in the planning for a couple of weeks.
Arriving at Suzie's private address I was welcomed in and the first thing that hit me was how nice she smelt the perfume coming off of her a delightful aroma as I knelt on the floor in her hallway as she closed the front door and I lowered my head to kiss her black stockinged toes that peeped out of the open end of her black mule high heels.
Going into the lounge I placed the tribute which was in a thank you card on her coffee table, so Suzie had no need to ask as I think this is the best way for a Feminized Sissy Cuckold to act in the presence of a superior.
Suzie was my choice of lady to visit as she ticked so many boxes and via our e-mails and talk on the phone she showed in her replies that she knew exactly how a Cuckoldress like me needs to be treated!
Suzie is a mature Prostitute of many years’ experiences at the age now of sixty-six, not fat but what I would call plump with a big bottom and saggy large breasts and blonde out of a bottle hair.
Facially Suzie is not the most beautiful woman, but she had a certain something that is very appealing and slightly kinky what with the dick sucking lips she has via Botox.
Of course, them pumped up lips that look a little freakish on a woman so old are coated in red sticky lipstick something that makes sissy cuckold Carla weak at my black stocking clad knees.
upwards from her four inch high black mule high heels Suzie has on her legs fully fashioned black seamed stockings with a sexy point heel, the stockings are held up by the suspender straps on the black and emerald green Basque she has on that her large breasts hang out over the cups of and covering that delight Suzie has on a sheer black see through nylon gown which is edged with lace.
She looks exactly what she is an old whore, and I am besotted.
When contacting Suzie and explaining what I wanted we went into depth for the things that were required to make the visit a memorable experience for both of us as not only for me my first time with Suzie but for her also as although over the years she had dealt with many transvestites and crossdressers I was one of the very few self-confessed Feminized Sissy Cuckolds she had seen.
I need to mention that Suzie is Married and has a totally supportive husband Tom who although not present at the session had helped Suzie in her preparation and as the session moved into the deeply sexual it was to Suzie's delight to reveal to me that her husband and his meaty cock as she put it had delivered into her both pussy and anal creampies for me to clean.
But the session was not just about licking clean fucked pussy and anus of sperm there was other things that Suzie foisted on me that we had spoken about which included and hard fucking of my sissy pussy with an eye watering sized strap on dildo.
Suzie loved my nonexistent sissy clit locked up in the flat plate chastity device and the pain I suffered as she worked on stimulating my sissy love bud up my ass pussy and once, she had fucked me till I was like jelly at her feet she then forced the dirty dildo down my throat.
One of Suzie's talents was her use of verbal humiliation something that for me sets a Cuckoldress of fire as they deal with you and it was like a dream as we went forward till Suzie started to use me as her toilet making me consume a bladder full of her hot salty urine and finally the sickest part of me came forward as I licked round her tangy dirty sphincter wetting in and probing it my tongue prodding the tip of the log of her shit that was starting its journey into my sissy cuckold toilet mouth for me to consume a act of adoration and worship a sissy cuckold needs to do to make the Cuckoldress or any lady know that she is everything and the feminized sissy cuckold is nothing!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 767.
With the sweltering hot weather, we have been having of late the delights for the Feminized Sissy Cuckold go into the stratosphere when it comes to general clean up's and creampie clean ups of a woman.
The rabid heat of course makes pussies and bottoms so much more pungent and it's like a punch in the face when you go down on a woman ripened by the heat and as much as the smells and tastes can be utterly repulsive no sissy cuckold worth its salt would deny a woman a cleaning!
And what planet are you as a Feminized Sissy Cuckold living on if you think a Cuckoldress is going to bother even thinking of washing and perfuming herself in the heatwave when she knows she'll be forcing your face to her holes for a cleaning!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 766.
As said before I was ousted as a transvestite early on by my mother who sort of encouraged it from then on so I was in stuff around the house, and she would help with makeup and stuff.
This was very naughty I suppose but some real life long benefits also came from this liberal way of living as I grew up as Mother took pride in teaching me all the things needed to know how to do to run a household and kitchen so there was lots of evenings cooking meals, home economics she called it something all women have to be the Mistress of, then there was the household chores and I had to work long and hard at these lessons and over time I became the one that did all the chores.
There were also other handy things she taught me like sewing, knitting, which I got good at and crocheting which sad to say I never really got the hang of and then there was the ironing board and the strict lessons in how to press clothes properly and fold them once creased free.
Now many years later you'll never find my home in disarray as I took as a feminized sissy cuckold all the imparted knowledge to heart!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 765.
The height of ecstasy for the Feminized sissy cuckold is to be there watching real men have sex with your wife!
To see her reacting as a woman should when getting actually fucked all her morals swept aside now, she is a Cuckoldress and taking what she wants with savage sluttiness literally fucking men to death is heartwarming and so exciting for the feminized sissy cuckold knowing it could never achieve what a real man can do!
Of course, there is also the clash of emotions as you watch the woman you love and adore so deeply you will do anything she wants of you pigging out on huge cocks using all her holes to drain every ounce of orgasmic pleasure she desires from the men.
The emotional pain is shattering but in the feminized sissy cuckold it is mixed up with the adoration and thrill of seeing your wife loving sex all dressed up like a real woman should be in stockings heels and lingerie to excite herself and the man making him just that little bit bigger and harder for her.
Many Feminized sissy cuckold either in chastity or not will at some point go into a feminized sissy cuckold frenzy and have a sissygasm without touching itself just from the sights and smells of the rutting couple in front of it!