SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1110.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold still to this day when my mouth is full of hard erect cock and I am sucking like a slut to get the cream I get a tear in my eyes just at the thought of how low I have stooped because of the uncontrollable needs in me.
Everything about my upbringing from the moment I was interfered with by my stepfather was a barrier to me ever accepting homosexuality in fact way back then I had an abhorrence of it.
What was and still of shocking to me like many budding feminized sissy cuckolds find is that quite by accident or force of nature we find ourselves unwittingly in situations where we are open to homosexual abuse from perverts and because we are weak and vulnerable as feminized sissy cuckolds we are cornered and have no escape and once engaged our inner perversions shame us and our little sissy clits betray us.
This is exactly what happened when that pervert sat next to me in a porn cinema and took over the masturbation of my little clit until even though I was horrified and disgusted at what was happening he brought me off.
Then is the horror when you find out that your Cuckoldress rather likes the idea of you entertaining her with acts of perversion with a homosexual man and your shame and self-disgust that you comply as you are more afraid of your Cuckoldress that engaging in sex with a man.
The only saving grace here is that mentally you can lay the blame off on your Cuckoldress reasoning that she had made the choice for you and you did not do the vile things on your own you were only obeying.
It’s the Cuckoldress wife that gets the feminized sissy cuckold conditioned to engaging in perverse homosexual acts from sucking her lover’s slimy spent cocks clean and fluffing them to hardness.
Then as I said you are to entertain her and at times her friends with displays of pathetic sissy sex with another cuckold or submitting in front of an audience to having sex with homosexual men and having to do your bit with gusto to show your wife and the others that you as a feminized sissy cuckold really strive to perfect your womanly side.
The disturbing thing is that if by chance you end up dumped and divorced you find that there is no return to any sort of vanilla existence and of course you crave for creampie like any sissy cuckold does and in the end through your weakness you’ll engage with a free will to having sissy sex again even though this leaves you ultimately let down because of the weak and watery product of your feminized sisters.
In the end with a heavy shame and guilt laden heart you will make yourself available to men to use and fuck you so you can get your fix of the real cream trading up your feminized body to every homosexual act just to get to swallow the sperm.
I personally have and never will class myself as homosexual or even bisexual I look at myself as a feminized sissy cuckold as a piece of sexual meat to be used by anyone who needs to take a load off their mind.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 1109
Whether you like it or not once a woman finds out you have a tiny penis or play dress up in women’s clothes the gossip will being no matter if she told you your secrets safe with her.
And she is not actually lying to you as she deems it not blabbing telling her closest girlfriends.
Her girlfriends on the other hand have given you no assurances of non-disclosure and thus the news about you will spread like wildfire and you’ll start getting those sly sneering looks, open laughter, the wiggle of little fingers and even some women coming up to you and passing into your hand’s panties.
Your world feels like it has come to an end so why is your little penis so aching hard and excited and you are masturbating in a frenzy after a day full of humiliation.
And it won’t stop there as these women have boyfriends and they will casually get to know you are a tranny dud and they will also torment you in the way guys do.
Now you are in a really vulnerable position the danger is very real as you will find certain women will coset you and make you believe that they have sympathy for your predicament and draw you into what you think is a caring friendship and feeling safe her sly questions will come and she will draw out of you your fantasies about wanting to be a feminized sissy cuckold cleaning sperm out of a fucked love one’s pussy and anus that’s swimming in real male sperm and also sucking slimy post suck cock clean.
And once your feminized sissy cuckold fantasies are exposed you are really fucked as these so-called caring loving friends will expose you to all and sundry sealing your fate so much so that you will never be able to operate as a normal guy.