I was taken back to yesteryear on hearing a song from the 90's by Erasure. My boyfriend at the time used to sing it, the chorus at least, when he fucked me 'I love to hate you'. He quickly modified it to 'I love to hate you, you fat cunt'
i've been thinking about what i want done to me, but now i'm just thinking i'd like to have my Masters –and there should be many of them – doing whatever they want, experimenting how many ways they can hurt me, whether they can think of things that could still humiliate me and make me feel even more degraded... really, how far they could take it. And, importantly, I would want zero "safeword," or any way out of it, ever. But I would not want to be killed, or to have my clit damaged so I could never get horny from it, even if i wouldn't necessarily alolowed to cum... maybe i would sometimes, or maybe not, up to my Masters like everything else. But the most degrading thing is to be forced to demonstrate how wet i get from it all, so probbly don't take away my clitty, i'm thinking. thank you for listening to my stupid fantasies everyone... still not sure if i will ever really dare to do any of this. lackmailers welcome, to, you know, maybe get me started own the path to ruin and shame...
