SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 801.
I think that many Feminized sissy cuckolds like me get to a point where masturbation centers on getting to a sissygasm via my sissy gland deep inside my sissy pussy.
My tiny little penis hardly gets touched as over the years it has been brow beaten and whipped into me that touching myself is sinful and dirty and not something a Feminized sissy cuckold should do unless ordered to by its Cuckoldress.
I have been so conditioned over the years that even when alone I feel a huge sense of shame and badness if I touch my little sissy clit and this effected any masturbation making it difficult to squirt as even behind a locked door alone, I actually feel that I am going to be caught out and punished? (Work that one out if you can!)
Then there are issues with my little penis as after so many years of chastity, verbal slander, cutting remarks, sexual denial fear of being aroused under threat of punishment and torture in fact everything that has been heaped upon me from the Cuckoldress Arsenal has destroyed my ability to get and maintain erections.
Shamefully even when I am being fucked with a strap on or worse by a man my little sissy clit flops about as much as a tiny penis can flop about and I sissygasm from a limp little clit.
The only comfort I take is that with the advent of the internet and being able to contact like-minded people and other Feminized sissy cuckolds a lot of us sissy girls are alike when it comes to penis issues.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 800.
As a Feminized sissy cuckold I like many have certain weaknesses that I cannot control, and one is for a certain tone of tights which are American Tan.
The reason for this is that they were the color my mother was wearing that shameful night when I was massaging her feet and my little penis swelled and popped out of my pajama bottoms and erected against the silky sole of her foot.
I really thought my life was over at that precise moment, but I could not control getting stiff what with the stocking clad women chasing Benny Hill on the TV and the feel and smell coming from my mother’s feet that she often had me tickle, massage and caress of an evening when we watched television together.
But what happened next blew my mind and opened me up to confessing my supposedly deepest secrets?
There with my little hard on up against her foot Mother suddenly eased her foot aside on her heel and looked at my penis and made a snorting sound of derision.
“Carry on massaging my feet as they are the only important thing in this room for you to concentrate on!” she quipped then ran her foot up my meager length causing my little penis to twitch and spasm and had me on the verge of having a nasty little accident.
So, you can understand why American tan tights have become a need in me and I have most of the world’s stock! (hahaahahaa) and it was not just the foot episode as that night also saw Mother inform me that she knew I stole her dirty tights to wear and had me go and put a pair on, that evening the first dirty pair in the laundry basket were black ones but over the coming months and years I wore hundreds of pairs of Mothers worn and soiled American tan tights hence cementing the fetish for them so deeply I am helpless to resist.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 799.
I wrote yesterday about feminized sissy cuckold masturbating, being caught out and having to ingest the pathetic dribble our bodies produce all nature’s way of getting us ready for creampie work.
In yesterday’s piece was reference to out small useless little penises and why we can never be classed as masculine in any manner.
Of course, our shame and humiliation of not even coming close to measuring up makes us very insecure and literally terrified of real men with acceptable cocks.
In our harsh world some of us would have wrongly been put to cock at a developing stage thus making the acts we have to do as a Feminized sissy cuckold all that much more frightening and scarier?
Our Cuckoldresses know of course that we carry this fear of real men who take over all sexual duties to the women in our lives and it amuses the Cuckoldress to exploit that fear and terror because we are feminized and put us to cock in so many ways.
There is of course sucking wet slimy cocks clean after they have fucked your Cuckoldress as part of the creampie clean up duty and associated with that is dirty cock cleaning after they have indulged in anal sex.
The Cuckoldress also likes to be entertained, and many will make their feminized sissy cuckold have sissy sex with another sissy cuckold for a laugh with the other wife of her girlfriends.
Or the more serious giggles she can get in making sissy cuckold have a boyfriend some homosexual or perverted sex starved male who will fuck anything, there is also fetish and sex parties where the Cuckoldress makes sissy cuckold available to anyone who wants to fuck its holes.
Then as a last thought if the Cuckoldress wife is sinful and wicked enough she might enjoy the status as a Cuckoldress Pimpess and make sissy cuckold earn her money fucking men for money and many wives find they get a terrific income stream as so many girls are going only for black guys or money loaded men these days the rest of white masculinity has to turn to what looks like a woman to get their end away.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 798.
For all of us Feminized sissy cuckolds one of the basic laws we have to live by is that we must lick up and consume our own messes! Such as when we are young and masturbation fiends!
Of course so many developing feminized sissy cuckolds will naturally explore and lap at what dribbles out of their tiny clits but in some cases, it falls to a woman who catches sissy out wanking to demand that the mess is licked up.
Many forces come into play having to eat your own pathetic spilling first being the shamefulness of what you are doing as you already know full well that this stuff coming from you should be released deep in a woman’s pussy not licked up by yourself an act that no real man would partake in.
Then if it is a woman who has caught you wanking and has demanded you finish in front of her before making you clean your mess up the humiliation is massive specially if that woman is your mother or some other significant woman in your life.
You see not only have you been caught out being a dirty sissy in some female apparel abusing yourself, but the woman gets to see just what a tiny slim little thing you have sticking up and just how fast it takes you to squirt faster still because of her cutting hurtful words about your lack of penile size.
In so many instances the watching verbally abusing woman will instill into the budding sissy that it must always lick up its own mess if it cum’s or is allowed to cum? Alluding to a state of chastity that the budding sissy has not even thought about yet.
Whatever the path the budding feminized sissy cuckold had gone in starting to consume its own weak watery output the most important part nature is playing is getting the to be feminized sissy cuckold used to the ingestion of sperm so it’s programmed to eat it when a woman finally lowers her dirty fucked pussy or anus onto sissy cuckolds mouth after a real man has fucked them and deposited his huge volume of rich creamy sperm.
This pre learning on your own spunk also makes cock sucking easier for the budding sissy cuckold in the many perverse paths the Cuckoldress will take her feminized sissy cuckold down.
And finally, once a feminized sissy cuckold understands it has to clean up its own mess it will forever do this knowing dirty girls like him have no right to spill its pathetic filth leaving it anywhere unless that is it goes into another pathetic feminized sissy cuckold!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 797.
As a Feminized Sissy Cuckold authoress, I get quite a few requests to write certain scenarios on a wide range of subjects.
Of course, we are all different and a vast array of things turns each individual on so things like rubber or adult babies personally do nothing for me so I will never sit and produce any work on those subjects among other things that are a personal turn off.
But today I got a request for an Elderly Mother-in-Law and young feminized sissy cuckold related story something that really does push all my buttons and I have vowed to the person asking that with a little patience I will put out a novel on the Ultra Mature Mother-in-law that goes beyond the perversions the person has mentioned!
Like so many Feminized Sissy Cuckold or want to Be’s the Mother-in-law holds some sort of mythical place in the role of the Sissy Cuckold, firstly as most wives Mothers do not think that the man she has picked is worthy or good enough for her daughter so if the marriage does turn into a Cuckoldress led one the Mother-In-Law starts being involved already holding a grudge against the Son-In-Law so the outing of him to his new status as a Feminized Sissy Cuckold proves the Mother-in-Laws feelings about what she always considered a waste of her daughters time!
Of course, the Feminized Sissy Cuckold will come to learn that it’s Mother-in-Law becomes the advocate of the most stern, sadistic and brutal methods in controlling the sissy cuckold and all daughters seem quite happy with the advice and help that comes her way from her mother.
And we all know the consequences of the Mother-in-Law offering her time and services to be the sissycucksitter when her daughter is dating!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 796.
Some of the most humiliating and harrowing times for the feminized sissy cuckold is when it’s Cuckoldress wife playing the comparison game where she measures you up against the current man or men in her life!
Standing next to or besides her latest stud in all your feminine apparel is the first massive indicator of what a failure of a male you are and even if you were naked, you would look insignificant next to his muscle hard body even more so if he is a black male.
Then there is your tiny little sissy clit next to his mammoth cock and in many cases you might not even be able to get hard so ashamed are you and terrified of the gigantic cunt and anus pleaser standing proud of his groin pointing at your wife who lavishes time over measuring you both loudly stating the fats that you’re a dud and she wants the big one!
The men like this game as well and you can see them bursting with male pride as crushing you with the presence of their masculinity and they know that there is nothing you can do as the Cuckoldresses husband to stop him taking your wife whenever he wants!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 743.
Wonder how many Cuckoldress wives when they are on their period also enforce a week of wearing sanitary products on their sissy cuckold as well as them being the Cuckoldresses sanitary towel with its mouth and tongue!
Tania used to have me in pads and tampaxes for the entire time she was in her period and of course I was the one that had to go and purchase the products she wanted for herself and of course me.
You get some very funny looks at the checkout when there you are a transvestite buying period products and the female staff must have a good laugh and gossip over you when they have a break and coffee trying to work out why on earth, you’re purchasing something that’s for real women!
Of course, they will conclude that you have a tampax shoved up your ass and a sanitary towel in your knickers in some sort of show of sympathy for women!
Tania though God bless her was and is a Cuckoldress that likes to get as near as possible to reality and she would daily through her period take a razor to the sack containing my sissy ovaries and make little cuts, so I bled into the towel that was in my knickers!
All this I had to endure as I acted as her sanitary towel licking her towels clean or sucking clean her full tampaxes and then of course my mouth and tongue working overtime to lick away the blood, slime and chunky livery bits that she used to expel from her body on her period week!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 795.
As a Feminized Sissy Cuckold one of my many weaknesses that was developed at an early age with the chubby delightful Fran Hewitt who was the second mature woman to get her talons into me her thing was not washing!
Believe me that first time I was literally ordered round to her home after the very memorable fancy dress party where she kissed me when she was dressed as a French prostitute and me a woman and she got a feel of my little penis and whispered in my ear that I was way too small for her!
It was Fran that after the kiss spread the news to all the females at the gathering that I was pathetically endowed which from the sniggers and looks I was getting made my humiliation so humbling.
Anyway, once at Fran’s home and after she had dressed and made me up again, she finally wanted some attention from me via oral service and what was revealed when she stripped down to her lingerie high heels and stockings was that specially for my going to see her, she had not bothered with washing or wiping!
Fran of course knew that I had eaten her best friend Pam’s creampie pussy so lovingly informed me that she still had what was left of her boyfriend’s spunk in her from the previous day and she had also pissed herself and sweated so she was very ripe and I could smell her from a distance an aroma that got more wicked and strong as I got near and went down on her when commanded to getting the full flavor of her dirty pussy something that strangely aroused me into what I now know and call a sissy cuckold frenzy!
But Fran was not a woman to do things by half and when she then turned and bent over giving me a wonderful view of the seams running up the back of her legs and then teasingly eased her buttock open I witnessed her twitching sphincter that was lose and raw from an obvious ass fucking and not only that Fran had not wiped and there was shit all up her ass crack.
I was giddy to the point of almost feinting when Fran ordered me to lick her bottom and then lick and suck deeply on her asshole to get all the shitty spunk out of her and not for one moment did, I think to refuse her order.
Worse for me or good for me was the accident that happened when I was lapping deep into her rectum swallowing the rancid old sperm and shit out of her back passage and my body just shook suddenly and I exploded into a sissygasm something that Fran witnessed and brought out one of the most sexually wicked evil laughs I have ever heard from a woman witnessing just how truly pathetic and perverted I was as Feminized Sissy Cuckold.

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 794.
As the years have rolled by I have never experienced a drop of in the intensity of feelings and emotions I get being a feminized sissy cuckold, in fact I would say they have increased exponentially as my fetishes have become sicker and more depraved and it was beaten into me that as a feminized sissy cuckold I had absolutely no human rights and had to obey any command or order from a woman no matter how degrading.
One thing for certain for us feminized sissy cuckolds there is no return to normality as nothing compares to being what we are and we know serving a Cuckoldress and being made to do sinful things with anyone we are ordered to is the best we can ever hope for as we lost all our masculinity the moment we eased into our first panties, stockings or tights!

SISSY CUCKOLD HISTORY 793.
I know when I am feeling a bit off color as I have been the last couple of days as I tend to have the sickest perverted degrading and disgusting nightmares.
It’s when I am in delirium that the sissy cuckold depravations seem so real the smells the tastes the emotions as my so-called mind goes over all the incidents in my life where my ex-wives and cuckoldresses and other females have done awful things to me and made me comply with their whims and desires!
So, in a way, although I do truly hate being ill there are some sordid side benefits to being under the weather!