You sound like an ideal mate for a committed relationship (in your case, marriage) with a heterosexual guy like me. A woman that's totally loyal and faithful but has a curiosity about intimacy and as may be, control of relationships with other women. These statements are made by me because i greatly value trust and faithful honesty but have a strong curiosity and appreciation of bi-curious, bisexual, and lesbian relationships and their many different dynamics, mental and physical, that contribute to the desires of those who are interested and even aroused by the behavior, or its potential to satisfy urges and curiosities of female-to-female relations. Thank you for sharing your private thoughts, desires, and the notion of fantacy you have expressed. ~ PrivateEye