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My Journey Becoming a Sissy
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My journey I guess started when I was younger and just became aware of porn. My initially reaction was I wanted to fuck and have them suck my cock as I thought they were all so beautiful. As I started to buy more magazine (before the internet) I started to love what the women were wearing it made them look so sexy and desirable. I tried to find magazines that had the women dressed in short dresses or skirts with sexy lingerie and heels. I always thought about what it would be like to have a girlfriend that look like that and dressed like that. While all my friends would say that they could never want to have a girlfriend if she was a pornstar in my mind I didn't care they were hot and sexy. As I got a little older my friends starting dating and I seemed to always be the one with out a girlfriend. So for me I stole panties from some of my guy friends sisters seeing how it was as close as I would get to pussy right now. As I continue to buy more magazines I noticed that I became very curious as to what a girl felt when she was fucking a guy. In the magazines they always seem to be having so much pleasure from being fucked. Also, they seemed to enjoy the lingerie in the magazines as well they always seemed to have a smile on their face. So one day I tried on the panties to see if it would give me pleasure like the girls in the magazines. I didn't really give me pleasure it just kind of made me horny and curious about what they felt when they got fucked. This eventually led me to stealing bras as well and lipstick. After a few failed relationships my curiosity grew and I wanted more feminine things as it made me feel good. I started out buying stockings garters and other sexy lingerie from places like fredericks of hollywood usually around christmas or valentines day. Buying these made me so excited but also just loved looking through the lingerie. This led to buying dresses and skirts and such along with heels all similar to what I had seen in magazine on those women. A little bit later and off to college and my going deeper into dressing. I started to wear panties and bras under my male clothing during the day. I started to try and find more things about crossdressing and shemales and as I did I started to dress alittle more. Even though I was a closet dresser I still liked to go out and look at beautiful women. So ocassionally I would try and find strip clubs to go to with friends. They would get lap dances and talk about fucking them or having them suck their cocks. I usually agreed with them but inside I just loved what they were wearing and what they were doing. Ocassionally I would get a lap dance always a little self concious about my size seeing all the magazines with the guys in them with big cocks. Also every now and than when I would get a lap dance some of th girls would ask if I was excited of course I was but they couldn't feel it. When I would get a lap dance I would just enjoy how feminine they were and how their perfume would smell or how smooth and silky their skin was. I kind of envied them but also in the back of my mind want to have a girlfriend like them. Well a few more failed relationships , culminating with my last saying "what am I going to do with that thing" refering to my cock (my little clit) was just around the same time I came across screw magazine and the shemales inside. This really peaked my interest but I thought how could they really be guys that looked so feminine. And also some had huge cocks twice my size which I thought couldn't be true. Well after that last break up I wanted to go look at women in a strip club so I went to the city called show world that had peep booths. So I go in put my money in and the window shade goes up and there is a sexy blonde just finishing up and getting off the stage. I get kind of pissed because it takes a few minutes before the nest one goes on and I have to put more money in. Well this brunette gets up on the stage shes about 5'6" 5'7" ish with maybe D cup breasts and shes beautiful. Well she starts dance eventually taking off her top to expose her beautiful breast which look so hot and my peep window starts to close and I have no small money to put in so I have to leave and get more money. I go downstairs get change to come back up but as I am walking to the peep both who do I see is the brunette dressed in all her sexy lingerie. She sees me and comes over and asks if I want a lap dance I immediately agree. We go to a small room with a chair and a table where she starts to strip and rub against me. After a little while she tells me to take out my cock and play with it because that really what I am here for. So I do and when I pull it out she kind of chuckles I get embarassed and don't know what to do. With that she puts her big tits in my face and askes me if I want to see something. In my mind I am thinking she is going to show me her pussy and maybe fuck me. She turns her back to me and about a minute later turns back holding a cock in her hand. I just can't believe it she looks so feminine smells so feminine but there she is with a cock, I am speechless. She moves closer to me and tells me its ok to touch it which I do. When I grab it it's way bigger than my hand and I just can get my hand around it. She moves closer to me telling me to kiss it kiss a real cock, and this is what a real cock looks like. She than reaches down to my still hard cock and says "you must like cock because your still hard" I don't even say anything I am just drawn to her cock. I start to kiss it as she instructs me what to do to her real cock. She keeps telling me this is a reall cock see how big it is and so on. After a little while once I have it lube up enough she starts to get more agressive and starts pushing her cock down my throat. She makes me gag and tear up which makes her laugh a little as she tells me my cock isn't a cock but a sissy clit and what I am sucking is a real cock. Eventually she cums but is like clear liquid it's not much and the little bit that went into my mouth I swallow the rest is on my chin which I wipe off with my hand. My head is spinning I don't know what to think I am kind of in a trance when I hear her tell me to look down and as I do I see my still hard cock and hers which is semi hard and still much bigger than mine. She than asks which is a real cock I mumble out that hers is and with that she asks who has a sissy clit I just mumble out me. With that she gets dressed and leaves with a big smile on her face. I sit there for a few minutes and than finally get up to leave and as I walk away I can't help but look at the crotches of everyone whos walking around noticing if they have a bulge or not. After this encounter I started to dress more and try and become more like her. I guess it might be considered the straw that broke the camels back, but looking back and thinking about when I started to look at porn I really did envy the girls in the magazines and want to dress like them and act like them and be them I just couldn't admit it to myself back than but now I can.
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Posted on : Feb 20, 2019
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