So, as you learned in the last entry I had become a walking hard on around age 10 or 11. One morning my mom was getting ready for work. She was in the bathroom with no bra or shirt on. I had to pee and walked in on her. She turned around and I saw breasts in real life for the first time. By this point I had seen dozens of naked women in magizines but to see them for real was awesome. The way they swayed when she moved was hypnotizing. The encounter only lasted a moment but it made me want to see more. 

   A few weeks later I poked a hole in the wall between the bathroom and my bedroom. It was way up high next to the ceiling so I had to climb up on a chest of drawers to reach it.  I remember peeking on my mom 3 times before she found the hole and had dad plug it. When asked about it I lied and told them I had thrown a battery out of one of my toys at the wall causing the hole. They seemed to buy it. 

   I gotta say that I have never fantasized about my mother. She was just a naked woman to look at. She looked pretty damn good when she was that age. I saw her topless twice and completely naked once.

   My brother, who is a year younger, and I shared the same room for years. We started out with bunk beds and later got a big bed we had to share. One night I woke up and for some reason massaged my brother's ass. Hell, he liked it. A few nights later he let me do it again but this time he removed his underware. The third and last time I played with his ass I rolled him over and put his hard dick in my mouth. I didn't suck or lick it. Just put my mouth over it. It freaked him out and I never had the urge to do it again. He has never spoken of this. I hope he doesn't remember. 

   My sister, who is 5 years younger than me, walked in on me while I was playing with myself. I'm thinking she must have been 5 or 6. She wanted to know why my pee pee was sticking out and why I was stroking it. I ran her off and was very embarrassed. I was so horny all the time that I was thinking about fucking the farm animals. My dad had gotten a porn mag that showed people fucking. So now I knew what to do with my dick. The second time my sister caught me I let her play with my hard on. God it felt good to have someone else touch me. She played with it for about 5 minutes and I made her stop before we got caught. About a week later she was stroking me again. I put her on the bed, removed her panties, pushed her dress up and tried to put my dick in her pussy. Our brother tried to get in the room. He told mom and dad that we had the door locked. By the time they came to investigate, we were dressed and acted like nothing was going on. But dad knew something was up. I remember him having a long talk with me. 

   I've never told anyone about any of this. My brother and sister have never said anything about it. If I could go back in time I would stop myself from doing those crazy things. It sucks to have major regrets from such an early age. I've had to live with this my whole life. 

   In my next blog there will be more sins to tell.  A lot more.