It all started back in the early 90s when I used to jerk off to Club Magazine several times a day. I really enjoyed Club more than the other mags, because the ladies would not only show their pussies, they would also spread their assholes wide open for me to gaze upon. That always got the blood pumping causing me to blow load after load. Back then I was younger, so when I came, I could have shot a fly off the wall. My dick was a cum cannon.

It wasn't long before I noticed that I was turned on even further when there was a stiff circumcised cock in the pic along with a flowery looking pussy and tight asshole. I called those shots "The trifecta", and there was just something that drew me towards those beautiful erections which made my cock even puffier. There was this one issue of Club in particular, that had a model named Scorpio who had a gloriously huge errection. It was a perfect cock if I ever saw one. I was turned on beyond belief and it was that moment that I realize I had an attraction to circumcised erections (No offense to those who are uncircumcised, but a cut cock is far more attractive to look at). I just stared at that sexy cock rubbing my dick faster and faster until I blew my first load by solely looking at a man's erection. It was a moment of self realization and the beginning of a whole new world of sexual fantasy.

I started to fantasize about sucking cock and eating cum. I would dream of being the guy in the middle of a circle jerk having cum spewed all over my face and in my mouth. I would fantasize about licking fresh cum off the shaft of a hard dick, or taking a flaccid cock into my mouth and making it hard. I started getting really curious as to what it must be like to feel a man's member twitch in my mouth right before his hot cum spews forth. This caused me to try and find a way to suck my own dick. Sadly that is not as easy as I had hoped it would be. Actually impossible. The closest I got, was getting the tip of my tongue to touch the tip of my dick. It became a failed experiement, so I went to plan B, trying to cum on my own face.

Trying to cum on my face obviously caused me to get into some odd positions while jerking off, but at least it was feasible. The first time I felt my hot load hit my cheeks then splatter across my mouth and nose was a glorious moment. It was, at that time, a high point in my career of self pleasure. This also caused me to take the obvious next step, eating my own cum. Man, was it tasty. I couldn't get enough. Whether I shot a load on my face, or just jacked off to dick pics in Club magazine, I would slurp up my hot load and imagine it was straight from the tap. Despite all of that, I still fantasized about sucking a stiff cock. All the attempts at self pleasure and cum eating couldn't replace the real deal, and to this day I have yet to ever realize that fantasy.

Mind you, at this time I was a sexually active man in my twenties, eating pussy, giving rim jobs, fucking, and bringing pleasure to the ladies who were in and out of my life. I have always led a heterosexual life despite having fantasies of pleasuring cocks. I eventually got married, and  still am to this day. My wife had no clue about this side of me and the sexual desires I craved in my dreams. Over time they actually faded away and were mostly forgotten. That was until I discovered gay porn on the internet.

Wow, did the internet bring all those sexual fantasies rushing back. Looking at pics of ass fucking and cocks gushing cum made my dick so hard that I thought my mushroom was just going to pop right off the shaft. Man, did it make me throb. I was so turned on, I could almost cum from just looking at the pics. It also brought on other fantasies such as being fucked in the ass (yes, another fantasy yet to come to realization). I just had to know what it felt like, so I started fingering my asshole while I jerked off to erect cock pics. I swear, it nearly got to a point that I couldn't cum unless my finger was buried deep in "man pussy" as I called it. I blew many a load pleasuring myself that way for some time, and that's what caused me to research the how to perform a prostate orgasm on myself. Wow, was THAT a wild experience. I finger fucked and tickled my prostate until a rush overcame my entire body. I quivered and out of my cock gushed a huge river of cum that seemed to last forever. It was seriously a quality orgasm. The only drawback is that I felt like I had to pee for an hour afterward, so I rarely partake in that form of self pleasure, and save it for "special occasions".

Obviously all of this still leads to my list of sexual fantasies. All have yet to come to fruition, so bear with me as I list them.

I still want to suck a cock, as well as get fucked in my tight virgin asshole. I also fantasize about having a cock cum in my mouth, on my face, across my back after fucking me, leave a cream pie in my ass, cum across my dick and get licked off, jack my own cum on a cock and suck it off until said cock blows a load, get fucked while I'm sucking a dick, get fucked while I'm eating pussy, fuck a pussy while I'm sucking a dick, leave a cream pie in a tight male ass, take a shower with another man and suck each other off, jack off a cock while I'm giving him a rim job, and get fucked while I'm doing the previously mentioned. Mind you my fantasy is with circumcised cocks only, and I'm really not attracted to men enough to cuddle and kiss. I just solely fantasize about pleasuring cocks with my mouth and my tight ass. I just can't help but get turned on by a cock blowing it's load and to do it for real would a pleasure beyond belief. At least I hope it would be. I guess that's why they're called sexual "fantasies".