Loving Milord (MDS Blogs, Part Two)

This is the second half of a set of old blogs recording how I became happy slave and lover of milord Augustus, the Princeps Cyberius, and his lovely consort, the Empress Josephine.

If you haven’t yet, you should start by reading the first half: Meeting Milord (MDS Blogs, Part One).

Double the Intimacy DATE: Jul 11 2012, 3:15 pm / MOOD: Contemplative

This is the very first photo milord ever took of me:

Why I wanted to show this should be obvious by the time you finish reading below.

After I posted my blog about my first visit with him, milord instructed me to thereinafter more strictly follow the blogging format employed by his other subs, using links and photos as they describe their adventures with him and their feelings about them. When I was with milord this past weekend, he explained exactly what he meant. This is one of the Procedures he has now taught me. Milord has few Rules; he expects his subs, however, to learn many Procedures.

Given the context in which he first raised this blogging procedure, that is, following the format of his other subs, I suppose the first emotion I should explore is how I feel about the fact that milord has other subs. It may surprise many to read that it does not bother me. I entered this relationship with open eyes. Milord lists his "Dating Status" here as "Polyamorous," and displays his other subs on his profile and in his gallery. I have not met them yet, but milord has informed me that he intends I should meet them soon.

In that regard, on my profile I list my orientation as "Bi-curious." This curiosity has increased greatly since I joined this site. Milord has come right out and said he expects that I will have the opportunity to satisfy this curiosity when I meet one or both of his other subs. I know it sounds awful, but it actually turns me on that he is planning my sexual experiences for me, even those with other people.

One of milord's other subs is an accomplished photographer. She has already said she wants to photograph me. I am really looking forward to that!

Milord takes nice photographs, too. Here is one he took when we first got together last month:

Here is one he took last weekend:

Here is a similar picture with pearls:

Those pearls! The night before, milord had done the most amazing things with those pearls. The best was when he covered the whole strand with a stimulating oil, inserted almost the whole thing in me, then slowly withdrew it while using his tongue on me at the same time. In my mind, this photo commemorates that:

I still get shivers remembering!

Looking through milord's Gallery prompted me to ask him why he takes so many pictures of his subs performing fellatio on him. For example, here is one of the first photos milord ever took of me:

And here is one from this past weekend.

He gave two reasons. First, he noted these were some of the only times during lovemaking that his hands were not busy doing something more important. He is certainly right about that!

He then went on to explain that the main reason he likes to display such pictures is that fellation is the ultimate in, as he put it, "obsequious intimacy." I asked if this meant he thought it was degrading, and that's why he displays them. He said that it is just the opposite, and that he finds not just pleasure, but "comfort," in oral sex.

I'm not sure I understand that entirely yet, but I'm starting to get a better grasp on it. Thinking back over the weekend, I think my initial mistake was by not realizing the emphasis he places on intimacy in everything. Milord is always a gentleman, and I think there is intimacy in all of the things he does with me, whether they be intensely sexual (and, to be fair, I should mention he gives me more cunnilingus than I give him fellatio), or as simple as stroking my shoulder as we pass in a hallway.

Which brings us back to that simple photo with which I started this blog. Milord took it the first day we met, and posted it here a few days later. He added an effect, however, darkening the edges so that, despite the flowers around me, the only focus is on my face. It makes the picture, I believe, much more intimate.

Of Love & Dumplings DATE: Aug 02 2012, 2:49 pm / MOOD: Hungry

I have figured out why I have fallen so hard for milord.

A few weeks ago, I happened to mention "Pierogi Fest" to him, telling him that being of pure Polish descent, I had practically grown up on pierogis. I never suggested that we go; I had mentioned it almost in jest.

Then, last Saturday morning he called me from his car, said he was a half hour from my place, and that I should dress comfortably for a day at the Fest. This was a complete surprise. I did not even think I'd be seeing milord last weekend.

We had a wonderful day together at the Fest. We rode the carousel, danced before, during, and after the Polka Parade (which included such attractions as the Accordion Strikeforce, the Pierogettes, the Babushka Brigade, a precision lawn mower drill team, Carmelite nuns on skates, and the world famous Pierogi Pups), and ate every kind of pierogi you might imagine (the alligator was surprisingly good). He went so far as to include pictures of me at the Fest (plus one from later) in his gallery here!

The point is, he devoted a day of his life to something that interested me, and seemed sincerely happy to do it.

I wasn't sure what I expected when I first agreed to visit milord. I guess I expected everything to be centered on BDSM and sex. There has been plenty of that, but that has been the natural consequence of time spent centered on us as people and the relationship that has grown between us.

I first met milord to learn about dominance and submission, but each time I see him, I learn more about love.

Trial Run DATE: Aug 20 2012, 6:09 pm / MOOD: In love

I spent the past 16 days living in milord's house. The purpose of this was for milord and me, together with the other two members of his extended "family," to determine if we have the potential for long-term compatibility. At the end of that time we all agreed it had gone very well.

Milady spent every of the three weekends during that period with us as well. She is the first woman with whom I have ever made love. I had always been interested in, even intrigued by, what a lesbian affair might be like. Now I know. It is wonderful, even magical.

Milady is a photographer, and honored me by asking me to model for her. She has posted here some of the photos she took of me. This is my favorite of them.

Milady also taught me many things that will allow me to make milord happier, from how he likes his food (heavy on the herbs and spices) to how he likes us to wear makeup for play (heavy on the eyes), plus a lot of intimate secrets improper to share here. Speaking of fun and games, milord already has blogged about a competition between milady and me that turned out best for everybody.

Finally, this last weekend, milord's other pet Casey, who is milady's younger sister, was able to join the rest of us. Four in bed is far better than three! It ensures that no one is left out of the action unless she wants to be. Most importantly, though, all of us spent three days together under the same roof, and everyone seemed happy with it.

I entitle this blog "Trial Run" for obvious reasons. That does not indicate, however, any imminent change in anyone's living arrangements. I am already enrolled in Chicago for the coming semester. So it will be months, if not longer, before these past couple weeks of emotional and physical bliss might turn into something more permanent.

Before and After DATE: Aug 31 2012, 11:09 am / MOOD: Thankful

Following the specific directive and general form of the latest blog from milord, I present some "before and after" images. This is me before I met milord:

This is me since I met milord, milady, and her sister:

Note that the only two lines to change were "Orientation" and "Dating Status." This is all equally well explained by another pair of "before and after" images. This is me before I met milord:

This is me since I met milord, milady, and her sister:

Whether you prefer words or pictures, I think that pretty well sums things up.

Missing Him, Missing Them, Missing Us DATE: Jan 21 2013, 10:15 am / MOOD: Horny

With the holidays and all the other demands on everyone's time, it has been over a month since I have seen milord, and longer still since we've spent time with milady and Casey. I took a long walk in the cold this morning to try to work how badly I want to be with them out of my system. All I got out of that was a really nice self-portrait.

My apparent contentment in solitude is a fiction. Looking at this just makes me wish they were in the photo with me. I've come to realize I feel incomplete when not with them. I wish I could be with them every day.

I hope someday I can!

Do Train Rides Make Me Horny? DATE: May 17 2013, 6:17 am / MOOD: Excited

There is a cliche that the rhythmic movements of trains turn women on. Well, I'm taking the Amtrak up to Milwaukee today to see milord, milady, and the lovely Casey. I'm already horny in anticipation. If the cliche is true, I wonder what I'll be like by the time I arrive!

24/7 DATE: May 27 2013, 8:04 pm / MOOD: Ecstatic

Milord has requested that I move in with him for the summer as his 24/7 property.

It's no secret that I'm inclined to accept, but I thought I should think it over first. He graciously gave me until next Sunday to decide.

I'm almost certain to say "yes."

Before I do, does anyone have any comments or suggestions?

Grokking in Fullness DATE: Jun 18 2013, 8:06 am / MOOD: Contemplative

At milord's suggestion, I just read Robert Heinlein's Stranger in a Strange Land.

Among other conclusions I've drawn from this book, it occurs to me that milord's household is set up like Michael's nest near the end of the book.

It also compels the realization that mutual polyamorousness is the most moral form of sexuality.

I am going to reflect on all this more, then maybe read the book again.

Waiting is.