Ok, so I don't know if I'll be good at the whole commitment thing but I hope to put down some diary entries relating to my wanking habits and porn addiction.

Last night, as it is most nights recently, my chosen material was stories.  Big fan of the Kristen Archives and had a scroll through the mind control section.  I like these as they can bring in the element of blackmail, of being forced without control.  And that's what I want for myself really.  To be forced into realising my fantasies so that the Shame side of me can say 'sorry, out of my control, dudes'.

Last night was a below par wank sadly.  Couldn't really find the right story.  Wanted the dream story, a balance of blackmail, may be a bit of teen, a school setting perhaps, hint of incest, twist of beastiality and a healthy smattering of anal. Can't remember exactly which stories I went for but none really did the trick.  Which was a shame as my cock was like rock and desperate for a good let off.

In the end I had to use my own imagination and pictured one of the new girls at work, bent over a desk, and slowly pulling up her skirt to reveal such a pert, curved arse that only dreams are made of.  She was in a lust haze and begging me to fuck her arse.  Being a good boy I obliged although first had to nibble and kiss those cheeks and crack paying particular attention to the juicy pussy and arsehole.  That's one thing I do like, when a female (or male I suppose) character is really wet but feeling dirty at being in such a state. Dripping with musk.  Mmmmm.

So with a full more lubrications of my own cock with my own spit and some strokes of my balls followed by the obligatory strokes of my cock we got to where I wanted to be.  Relieved and slightly dissatisfied.  

Going to try and skip it tonight but you never know...

Oh, and to complete a true diary, I did get to look at some porn in the day and uploaded some new pictures from my travels.  Love that secretly viewing porn without the partner knowing.  Silly I know.