I'm back again, and as always my mind is constantly pre occupied with my femanine side. My new outfits are all ready now, I'm bursting inside to try them on and see what you all think. Ive tried all the items barr a couple on for size when Ive been able to grab just a few minutes of solitude which makes me even more excited to get on and start shooting.

Dont know if you other gurlz have the same problem, but aren't womens sizes so hard to pin down! Some times I can be a size 10, sometimes a size 12 and sometimes a size 14, so I tend to stick with a 12 as a general rule. My upper body whilst slim tends towards 12 - 14 with my lower body a 10 - 12, thank goodness I have small feet, at least socks and shoes are relatively easy to get LOL

So what have I been fapping over most recently? Well the latest additions to my favourites gallery will pretty much give it away, trannys tending to be my money shot pics LMAO. I've also added quite a few Teen Galleries lately too, naturally like most red blooded men I love beautiful youthful women and the cuter the better too! This got me to thinking about myself and the way I relate to my own femanine side. Looking at the many CD/TVs on Imagefap, its clear different people like and prefer to express their femaninity in different ways, usually by the way they dress.

I tend towards the younger side, the more cutesy look, innocent and sweet, the exact way I love my trannys and women to look. Naturally I emulate the images I see as best as possible so that I can represent my inner girl as close as I feel I am. I would say that given the way I dress I am inclined towards being an older girl as apposed to a woman. Maybe in time as I crossdress more and more I will develop as a girl would into a woman and begin to dress with more maturity but still maintaining the femaninity I am looking for.

So what does this mean? And how old is my own femanine side? Well I believe my inner female is about 16 - 18 years of age, maybe a tad younger ( and I must point out I do not condone underage sex in any form!!)  just discovering her sexuality. I'm kind of going through my own fem puberty if you will. Kind of the reverse I went through as a young male where I started growing hair all over the place ( although I must confess I am pretty much hair free across my body anyway except my shins LOL ). I am removing the very aspects of my masculinity when I crossdress almost like I were say 13 again but now branching off into my female side instead of continuing along my male side as I did. I see some CD's like the more mature look, as if trying to emulate mature women in fact or maybe that is just that they prefer to be more dominant in their fem role.

To be honest when I am fem, I am pretty much the same emotionally as I am when I resume my male personna. By that I mean I have always been a highly sensative male, in both my fem and male aspects I prefer gentle loving sex, perhaps I do lean slightly to being passive and whilst I dont like being dominated as such, I do enjoy being controlled and letting my partner take the lead. Dont get me wrong, I love a good hard fuck now and then and often fantasise about being gang fucked by a load of super hot shemales, used and abused for their pleasure ( and thus mine ^ _ ^ ). I dont know if other Cd's like myself tend towards gentleness or if they are as aggressive when they resume their female role as they are when they are in male mode. In fact thats one of the main positive aspects that any fem male can give to a woman. Being femanine is more than simply looking femanine, thats why you simply cannot stop being who you are, its a instrinsic part of your personality.

It baffles me that its a sad fact that most fem males will find it particularly hard to develop a long lasting relationship with a woman. Surely such a person would make the ideal boyfriend/girlfriend to any woman?Of course women will rightly look for a masculaine male in the same way that men look for a femanine female its only natural I suppose. Ah well my search goes on, maybe one day I will have the love of a beautiful female who will accept me for all I am.

Nighty, night peeps! XXX