I hope I have a wet dream tonight.  They're the only orgasms I have anymore.  It's been a while and I'm getting pretty frustrated.  Playing with my stump just never quite gets me there.

My wet dreams, when I'm lucky enough to have one, are messy.  Lots of backed up semen and my dispenser isn't exactly a straight shooter anymore. 

When I dream, whether it ends in orgasm or not, I often dream my penis is still there.  I sometimes wake to find myself grabbing for something that is no longer there.  Sometimes it's gone in my dreams, and sometimes I dream of cutting it off, although not usually in the way that it was really done. Sometimes I dream my ex cuts it off, as I had once asked her to.

Sometimes I wish I still had it, but I know that after a lifetime of fantasies and urges, I was going to cut it off someday.  Maybe I should have waited a while longer, but I don't regret the experience.