It's been a little while since I was last on here. A lot has happened since then.

Today's radio is just the usual Vaporwave mixes, nothing special. I have opted to avoid going any further than whatever I have already obtained as it stands, in my opinion the genre works best at its most popular, ironically enough. Takes elevator music to a whole new level, so to speak.

I've been pissing more people off lately, which makes sense. It takes one to know one and all that. I also just went through a whirlwind of boxes in a recent move. Suffice to say, making pumpkins in Java is to online work what sorting through stuff is to real life work for me. That arc is only starting to subside by now, there are plenty of boxes in my room as I type this. Funny how even with checking for errors and realtime editing, these days I still find mistakes in my work upon final review.

I haven't broadcasted lately, or even talked much here, although occasionally I do see a couple of the cam girls on Insta, which gives me a smile throughout my day. Good to know I'm not completely out of the loop here. Oh the irony in how this is the place I made some cash, being Mom's bane and all.

Alas, lets get to the heftier subjects here. I am swamped., time is running out, and the world at large is losing it too. The fraying of our collective ropes here is growing noticeable, and there is much to be done. It's a good sign that I got to leave my stuff at Meghan's and not Dad's, and I don't even really want most of it. The problem is not being given much time to properly sort through what I want and archive the rest.

I do have to give gratitude for being able to save so much of the stuff. They say stuff doesn't give you emotional return, but I would hazard that between the idea of God being there for you when you don't know what you feel and the Shinto belief of every object and collection of objects having their own spirits, I wouldn't know what to say.

The point is I've lost all direction, lost much of my ability to form coherent thoughts at the moment, and I may not be at the end of my rope but I am certainly unraveling at certain points along the line. Probably for the best but even this paragraph is being garbled somewhat! My mind has been unremitting in attempts to keep me stressed-- losing key facts like the ladder people nearby no longer being a threat or the basic comprehension that news feeds themselves are essentially ads.

This is especially so as a new participant in the internet stardom realm, which I'm not even really at all, in much the same way that anybody going up at an open mic is announced as a comedian. Suddenly money is involved. I'll tell you what my talent is though-- keeping money out of my situation. Until the world enconomy proves itself wholesome enough, which may never even happen, national happiness is a better indicator of 'success' to me, at least up until it gets 1984 on us. That's also partially about bullying using technology though.

Am I even talking about the world at this point? Ideally I would just want a clean house, healthy family members, and at least some adventure in my life perhaps. I'm not sure corona counts as the kind of adventure that's new to me though. I spend enough time at home as is, and I live somewhere with the freedom to go outside without a mask.

As I found in a short article (literally just a photo) sent to me yesterday that I have yet to actually read... it isn't about whether you get corona, it's how much. There are many paths in front of me at this time. I can only hope to choose what goes the social distance.

-Russly