Various topics going on in the Zoom. One contrast to Buddhism in the Catholic vein, instead of cessation of suffering, purposeful existence with it as an integral part of life. Not so much different in the approaches in some senses, vastly apart with some parts of the practices. Perhaps there is overlap in time to oneself and meditation and such, and at the same time maybe the wider populations still act differently, or even full circle to being similar again. Think Kahn Souphanousinphone ending up similar in ways with his community-- common folk Buddhism. Even church bells going on right now.

They also mentioned some idea of listening to the mind go, that's the Wu-Hsin practice in some sense. Additionally, an idea similar to that of the don't react, respond motto. Today is the weed only day for me. Been months since I went a day without booze. What I didn't expect was that weed only would be what keeps me on track with my days, as well as myself. I'm just naturally doing whatever it is that seems to the next step in preparation, so to speak.

 

Honestly my mind is obviously more on what it is I'm preparing for. I had a number of rooms to organize within about a week. Further, there's all sorts of little stuff hanging out in the background of to dos. In fact that's what's interesting about it, right? Today I have done a bunch of those to dos. Distinctly feeling high has been a relief for me, I've experimented and mixed and matched with the last of the different strains I have left over the course of the day, getting a fair sense of the textures they provide.

 

They've caught my mind on a technicality, thinking that life is more difficult now. For one, there's the line of how dare you question your path with all the ancestors who got you there. Second is the part having to do with Cleopatra by today's beauty standards would be the one to fall head over heels for us.

 

I've finished tonight's bowl, the music has repeated twice, and the meeting is almost over. Going to bed without drinking will be a hoot. I'll still be tired for sure, the shows began to do that to me anyway again, even games sometimes. Just heard something I took as a viral spread analogy, makes me think of the ghosts of King's idea. Anyway, the booze day was a doozy, similar to the day I cleaned up the shed a week or two before.

 

This time the music didn't repeat since I happened to have the songs part start up right when the meeting ended.

 

What now?

 

-Russly