I discovered masturbation when I was about 12 years old, and it was definitely the most exciting discovery of my life.
Learning how good it felt to play with my cock and balls, to stroke my penis, and how good it felt when I did it was just wonderful.
I did this for quite a while, and I did it a lot. My cock was often red and kind of sore, but that felt great also, so on I went. I had never had an actual orgasm however. I guess I had had what are called "dry orgasms", because I hadn't had an ejaculation.
The first time I came--the first time I had an actual ejaculation--I was stunned! What the heck was this white stuff everywhere? I was amazed, and I was also a amazed because it felt amazing! So intense! The cleanup was a little messy, but I didn't care--I had an even more exciting plaything now.
Now I couldn't keep my hands off my cock-I masturbated consstantly, multiple times every day, all night long when I was studying, in my bed, before beakfast, at school, after school--I made my cock bleed more than once from constant masturbation.
I loved it.
I still do.
That's what I'm writing about--the fact thought although I have had girlfriends and been married twice--I've never had sex with a man, yet--sex to me means masturbarion--it's what I love the most.
I can look back, especially to my first marriage when we were both quite young and we fucked constantly--every day and sometimes more then once a day. When my wife had her period we would fuck anyway, or ai would get a blowjob, which I liked very much.
I came to like oral sex--blowjobs--very much. Surprisingly, it took me along time to realize that I liked blowjobs because it was the closest "mutual" sex to masturbation--I was more in cocntrol of my pleasure and my rather submissive first wife let me do what I wanted to. I liked to have her lie down and I would kneel over her and fuck her mouth as long as I wanted, then when I was ready to come, I would put my cock in her cunt and stroke until I came in her.
But masturbation has always been my greatest sex love--sex by myself, and for myself.
I am masturbationg now, and it feels great. I will stroke myself and fondle my balls, and eventually lube up my cock and bring myself to orgasm, just exactly the way i want.
Masturbation--pleasing myself, and no one else, not sharing, just self-indulgence--just me and my cock.
I have always loved it, and I stll do.
Please feel free to comment, and thanks for reading!
