Have you ever asked yourself where it all began.

For me it started when I was a young boy aged around 11 or 12 with my friend Glen we would do things together as most boys do at that age, from what I recall it all started with a magazine with 2 men in towels it was just that nothing overly sexually just 2 beautiful men with beautiful bodies having white towels wrapped arounf their waists.

I remember taking that magazine home and hiding it under the bed and when I had the chance I would take it out and look at that picture and thinking how i was attracted to it. 

Then one day Glen and I went to the local pool and me being a shy boy wouldn't get changed in the group shed but I prefered the pvt change cubicles so Glen was a bit like me but not as shy so we made our way into the cubicle and started to unchange of course we both turned our back so as not to see each other naked then all of a sudden Glen said can I see your cock I didn't know what to say and I was shaking at the thought and showing him my cock but then something came over me and I turned around and there was Glen naked no hard on just a little cock just like mine.... nothing much was said after that because I think we both were embrassed but a few days later when we were in his play shed out the back he said I want to see your cock again and touch it well I was a bit hesitant at first but decided to see what it would feel like having another boy touch my cock, so I took of my clothes and Glen was a bit slow at first but once he touched it wow something inside of me just felt the exultation of an awaking something I wouldn't experience for another 9 years. 

After that day not much else happened but I took the usual root of having GFs and doing what most straight guys did in the late 70s and that was fucking girls drinking lots of piss and then I moved in with my GF.... 

Well then 1982 came a long and I moved to Australia from NZ with my GF we had a small one bedroom unit in Sydney things were going along nicely for the first year we were here but evently it all turned to crap as it does at that age.

We spilt and she left for England and I stayed in Australia and a few months later meet another girl well me being a dumb ass decided to move in with her, well that was the biggest mistake of my life, I don't know what it was but a few months after moving in I was out with a few friends and we had dinner in Kings Cross well after dinner and a few drinks I decided to walk home and it just happened I got onto Oxford street now if you know Sydney you will know Oxford st it's the gay mile.... well I was feeling rather horny and decided to go into a sex shop where they had pvt booths where you could put your 50 cents into the coin slot and watch porn and wank off well the only problem was it was all gay porn so what did I do I put my money in the slot and up came a video of guys at the local pool you couldn't make it up if your tried..... That was the day my life changed from a straight guy to a gay guy.

It was hard at first hiding it from my GF but I did all the while going to gay clubs and being my true self and then one day she confronted me and said why don't you fuck me anymore, and ask was I having an affair well I couldn't tell her the truth that I couldn't stand having sex with her or any female for that matter so we decided to take a break but live in the same 2 bedroom unit and try and patch things up well that was never going to happen but as time passed I felt comfortable with this arrangment, she did her thing and I did my thing by this time I had a nice little collection of gay porn which I would watch when she was out then one day I got home from work and then she confronted me and said are you gay, well I was lost for words and said why, then she showed me this video which I had left in the VHS called Big boys barebacking then she got rather nasty which now looking back I don't blame her she thought I was a sick perverted freak like a lot of people did in the 80s... Once it all came out she packed her stuff and left a few days later and I was so relieved that it was finally over. 

Once into the 90s life was good meet many men and had lots of sex visited lots of saunas in that time, there were a few regular BFs but one guy I really fell for was Richard an older married guy and the other was a 21y/o Asian student called Ben but I will tell you a bit about Ben later.

Wow Richard where do I start he was a beautiful handsome man he was in his late 50s and I was in my mid to late 30s, he was about 5'10 silver hair and a hairy chest and a bit of a tummy which I didn't have a problem with, it's funny we meet through an advert in a gay newspaper thats so funny these days, a newspaper you have to laugh..... His add said he wanted to meet a regular guy for daytime meets which I was fine with as I was on the road for work so meeting men was easy for me. Well we teed up a time to meet and see how we go well it when off like a rocket we clicked straight away.