I have an over-powering urge to suck cock.  I have always seen myself as straight.  I love pussy - using my mouth or dick, but cock has me enthralled.  I have been experimenting with eating my oen cum and it is driving me wild - I can easily eat my full load after I am done and I still enjoy it - it doesn't gross me out one bit.

Gay porn has really been turining me on lately and to the point that I find my orgasim is stronger and I feel like I shoot larger loads when watching it.  Fantasizing about sucking dick, or having a buddy that that I can casually suck off is my most common fantasy these days.  The idea of taking a load in my mouth and swallowing it is the best.  I am even starting to fantasize about letting a guy fuck me (bareback of course)... just the idea of feeling his load and him kissing me when he orgasms is really exciting.

Curious if there are any other guys feeling the same out there - have any of you given in and done it?  Was it good, are you hooked?  Looking for advice as well on how to meet up with guys to give this a try... hope to hear from you.