I can't get over how much of a pathetic sissy cock-craving beta loser I've become since the pandemic started. In a way it feels like a natural progression, but every day now I'm celebrating it and never wanting it to stop. 

 I think the moment I decided that cumming was no longer the focus and that feeling pathetic was a deeper, more satisfying feeling to fixate on, I could start to explore and appreciate the level of humiliation that I so desperately crave and need in my life.

 I want to start making regular journal entries to inspire other losers to be like me, to chronicle my experiences and progress in becoming a humiliation slut, and to remind myself in the future that it's okay to be pathetic, it's okay to want to embarrass myself, and that this craving may subside but it will never go away.

If you're reading this and it's aroused you, please reach out to me whenever you want. I'm here to please.