A sissy white boy here. I've had a craving for black cock since before the pandemic, and this whole thing has only made it worse. I've sucked one black cock before. It was massive. 8 inches, not quite as round as a coke can, but close. I don't think I've ever enjoyed doing something sexual as much before, not getting my cock sucked by a woman or anything could even compare. 

He stroked my cock for like four pumps after I sucked him for a while and I came, then I went back to his cock and he came in my mouth. All this while my girlfriend was at work.

I've fantasized about that moment ever since. I still wish I would have done more with him. Like kiss him and let him fuck me, even though I know I wouldn't be able to take his cock in my ass without a lot of pain.

So why are you reading all this? I guess because I want to find the right guy again I can experience that with. So here's a little story, which is more like my fantasy. Are you him?

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I come over to your place feeling very horny. I've probably edged myself just to get the courage and lust to meet up with a random guy like that. We have drinks, just being friendly at first. We play truth or dare. I pick truth a lot, and you ask me embarrassing questions about my desires, if I've dressed up like a girl before (yes), If I've put things in my ass (yes), If I'm fantasized about men (yes), If I've eaten my own cum (yes). All of my dares to you are dumb and silly, and my truths just ask you about your sexual interests.

Then finally you dare me: Kiss me for thirty seconds.

I'm nervous because I've never kissed a guy before, but a dare is a dare. You press me close to you and kiss me, not just a kiss, but full on make-out, sticking your tongue down my throat, sucking on my lips, I'm sucking on your tongue. At thirty seconds you stop me and I am desperate to keep going.

That's when you order me on my knees. At that point I'm putty and I do it. You pull out your cock and it's right in front of my face but you dont let me touch it. Just look at it, smell it, crave it. Then you tell me to go to the restroom and masturbate. Why? Because I'm not a real sissy if I only want black cock when I'm horny. You want to make sure I really want it. I'm so desperate and horny that I do it, thinking about the smell of your cock the whole time as I cum. All my perverted desires fade away as I cum, and now I'm feeling nervous and like I don't want to go through with any of this.

Right when I get out of the bathroom, you are waiting, grabbing me and starting to kiss me. You're strong and I can't simply pull away, so I keep going with it, letting you kiss me. You're so in control that I can't even think to tell you that I want to go home. You take me to the couch and we cuddle as we continue kissing. I'm getting horny again and you can tell by how my body grinds against yours and reaches for your cock, but you never let me touch it.

You tell me to go jerk off again. I suggest I touch you, but you say no. I do as you say, nervous still.

When I come out, you have sissy porn on. I'm feeling spent and anxious now, but you have beers open and demand I sit with you. We drink, watching the porn, occassionally kissing. You're treating me like a girl completely. I'm a little horny from the porn, but more excited with anxious nervousness at the entire situation. You tell me to jerk off again. I tell you I don't think I can, but you promise you have a surprise for me when I come out. I tell you that this was fun, but I should get going. You hold me close and grab my throat. You slide your tongue across my lips. I open them hoping to taste your tongue, now that I've slowly been trained to crave your mouth. Once i open my mouth you spit in it and I feel a jolt of fear as my cock throbs. You give me one more deep kiss before standing me up and telling me to jerk off right in front of you so you can make sure I actually do it.

My pathetic little cock is shrunken from cumming so much. Only an inch and a half soft. It looks like a clit. I tug on it desperately to get it hard. You tell me I need some help. I get excited as you loom over me, but you don't let me have your cock. You just spit in my face. My cock twitches, getting just hard enough for me to stroke it the rest of the way. I pump desperately, feeling empty, trying to imagine things to get me horny. I open my eyes and see you watching me. That's more than enough to do the job. Just watching you, a big black man in front of me, gets me horny enough to cum once more, a little dribble of cum.

You tell me to take a shower and use the stuff under the counter and come back. The desire to leave is still there, but it's overcome by this new feeling that I have to do whatever you say - that i WANT to do whatever you say.

I go to the shower and find a bra, panties, lipstick, and blush under the table. A simple sissy kit. I take a shower, cleaning myself very well, then get out and put on the bra, panties, and putting on the make-up. It doesn't look good. I look like a sillly idiot. I've always wanted to look like a real girl in this situation, but for some reason I'm not disappointed. I'm seeing myself for what I really am and It's even hotter than being a girl. I'm a sissy white boy piece of trash.

I come out and you're in your room, completely naked. You tell me that you needed to make sure I wasn't just horny. That I was a true black cock sissy. I feel silly and exposed, but also eager to play with your cock if to only finish what I started. That's not the plan yet though. You get on your hands and knees on the bed and demand I eat your ass. I can smell your sweaty ass. I approach it and put my tongue to it hesitantly, but you reach back, grabbing my hair and shove my face into your ass. I start licking desperately on your hole before moving down to your balls, but you stop me and tell me no touching your cock and balls until you say so.

I do as I'm told, licking your ass more eagerly as I become addicted to the taste. I even suck on your bulging taint, slurping up my spit as it slides from your asshole. Finally, you tell me to lay with you, but still no touching your cock. We cuddle close as we make-out, you spitting in my mouth and in my face, smearing it around with your hand. You start to finger my ass, one finger first, then two, then three, as I moan in pain and pleasure kissing you. My cock hasn't gotten hard once. It's soft, nice and small, like a clit. My balls are sucked up leaving just a small mound of flesh.you occasionally tug and pinch.

You guide me to the edge of the bed so that my head hangs off of it upside down. You're finally ready to give me your cock. You slide it in my mouth and start fucking my face. I'm choking and gagging and loving every second of it. It hurts, but by now I'm no longer a man. I'm just a useless sissy lay thing. You edge your big cock in my mouth for as long as you want until it's finally time. 

Dizzy, sore, and lustful, you lay me back on the bed and pull my legs behind my head. My asshole is nice and loose from you fingering, but still no match for your cock. You press the head of your thick cock on my hole without a condom on. It hurts and my body resists, but with your full body weight on top of me, pinning my legs down, it has no choice but to enter me, sliding in as I desperately suck on your tongue. You don't stop pushing until you balls are pressing against my body, then you slide out all the way. You give me long strokes as we kiss.

I beg you to cum in me, and thanks to the edging, you are more than ready to. You stroke fast and faster, hurting my ass but I don't care. You're ready to cum as I'm screaming begging for it. Then I feel your hot, black cum load fill my ass. I feel like I'm cumming too, even though my pathetic cock is still just a tiny, flaccid nub. 

You stay inside of me, letting your spit drool out of your mouth into mine. It's like I'm a whore for all your fluids.

Then you pick me up, staying inside of me, and take me to the floor so that once you pull out I'm standing. You tell me to catch your cum with my palm. I hold my hand below my ass as you pull out and a thick wad of cum falls out of my loose ass into my palm. It's a mix of clear and thick chunky white. More oozes out into my palm. You tell me to eat it. Without hesitation I put my palm to my mouth and slurp up the cum, digging my fingers into my ass for more.

You put your shitty cock to my lips and I instinctively start sucking it clean. You pull your cock out of my mouth and I'm breathing heavy, in love.

You tell me to call my girlfriend and tell her I'm staying the night.