This interview portrays Candaceblue'- a very attractive, young, TG woman, as moving to the Big Apple in March and starting over. Her Interest list is spare and to the point- 'bisexuality', 'cross dressing', 'kissing' and 'oral sex'. And she assured me that she intends to add more.
On a closer look you will see a dynamic process of metamorphosis within metamorphosis for this amazing woman. The primary process from gender male to transgender female and the newer process of becoming a fully empowered woman, with healthy boundaries and limits within her Persona as a Submissive. So you must have guessed how excited I am about this Interview…… she is very special!
After Candace and I messaged some, she readily agreed to be an Interview subject for our Subs group… here are excerpts from those messages-
Candace wrote-
" I am TG girl looking… and open to a lot. I'm not full time but may be some day… (my) pictures are all me and just took some new ones and I hope to be taking many more soon!"
"… I really am starting over. I lost … job, money, most of my family and all of my friends… my possessions…. all (my) cute girly clothes … (I) had to start over."
"What I mean (by)… changing everything is - stop living a hesitant life and definitely stop letting … 'bad people into my life…. I want to keep.. me… the same sarcastic and attention-whorey girl I was and will always be. I am older now and more experienced so… I just want to do things better this time."
"I started dressing at age 12…. and decided to go all-in... when I started a relationship- that I (believed) would be free of judgement… able to pursue any path in life I wanted and always be loved in return…. but… It didn't work out that way."
"So I am not exactly looking to jump into another… relationship but I (want) a richer life now…. and (be) who I am…. And not just the gender and girly stuff either."
"And….T-girls have a difficult spot in life and I am more keenly aware of it now more than ever… I know that I have a lucky set of genes in that I have small features on my face and big dark eyes. I have stayed away from drugs, smoking, too much sun to keep looking youthful. I'm half-Asian which never hurts. I taught myself how to smile pretty for the camera and I really don't have to work too hard to get attention (lol), but even with all that I am still in a hard spot. I have a very small pool of genuine suitors that will want to look out for me when I am older. Luckily my boobs will never sag, because they come in a box."
"I will never be the type of girl that is into multiple partners but I don't judge people who are…. I like small groups of friends that I can know intimately and occasionally hook up with for amazing, mind-smashing sex. I like to describe myself as a 'slutty librarian'… (don't) concentrate on the first half of my slutty librarian image…. Be gentle with me …"
"I realize that this is tilted heavily away from sexy stuff so I will say this….. I really enjoy giving sloppy, noisy blowjobs. I hear I am okay at it too!"
THE INTERVIEW
1. Candace I am struck by your courage, your poise, your femininity and beauty as a woman! What has it been like for you so far being a genuinely, beautiful, young transgendered woman? Tell us about your awareness of that, about being the prettiest girl in the room? Of course it had to be arousing and confidence building, tell us about that?
"Gosh, let me tell you all about being the prettiest girl in the room. It’s so hard! No seriously, I don’t know about being the prettiest girl in any room, unless I am the only one in the room at the time, (lol). I am always aware of things I don’t like about the way I look or feel. I have learned how to… put on natural looking makeup which is a big deal… and the value of picking good hair if you don’t have long enough hair of your own (it’s not complicated, it basically boils down to picking a wig with natural looking highlights and is long enough to smooth out the shape of my face). Now if you were asking me this when I was that 21 year old girl with a bag of slutty clothes, I would have no clue what to say. Of course I was a lot younger back then and just relied on being lucky, I guess."
"But I also don’t want to sound falsely modest or anything. I am pretty lucky about having some naturally feminine features and with experience learned enough to know how to play them up. It is hugely inspiring and confidence building when someone calls me pretty."
"I can’t deny it, it really makes me feel special and happy. Even if that person is on the internet and represents themselves with a picture of an erect penis (slutty is totally guilty), I still can’t help but be flattered (slutty heaves a sigh of relief)."
"But I am also a little vain, so I've gottent addicted to the positive feedback- It's kind of crappy of me and definitely shallow- but I don’t purport to be perfect. I will say this to any of the girls (TG's) out there- its always important to know how to present yourself. The best trick I know is to smile. I really can’t stress that enough, its the easiest thing you can do for yourself to feel and look pretty."
2. Reading between the lines I surmise that you are a very intelligent and resourceful woman.. which downplay. Is that ever an issue when you are really into your Submissive persona, or submissive situation?
"That I downplay being intelligent and resourceful? Sure, I think that’s part of any submissive persona, to give the illusion of being dependent on the other person for guidance. I’ve done plenty of bimbo play-acting, especially when I’m all tarted up with big blonde hair and bigger boobs."
"And I am inexperienced in a lot of ways, so its not exactly play acting either. Its funny how we have talked about a submissive persona, and thats true there is an element of pretend to this - like for instance, I am really not a mildly brain-damaged bimbo, but I have been known to act like one from to time. I do try to stay playful and fun during roleplay as I would in my regular life. That has made me incompatible with a lot of dominant people and thats ok. They can do their thing and I can do mine. I also think that to some degree I have inherited that kind of behavior from the culture and of how genetic women have had to do for a long time, to be unthreatening to their male suitors. I do think that is changing, but maybe not fast enough. Ultimately, I may be sexually submissive but I am also independent."
"I am still going to read to an excessively geeky degree and have a lot of opinions on things that may or may not involve sex. I am also going to continue to wear inappropriately short skirts until my legs are one giant varicose vein. Slutty librarians of the world unite!"
3. In the Interviews with TG's I have completed thus far, there seem to be two general goals for them- One group loving the sexuality, the thrill of exploring their sensuality and fetishes as a woman; While the other is very involved in finding a Romantic Love, that one partner and keeping their intimate and sexual contacts to a minimum. Where do you fall in that range?
"I have gone through phases where I wanted to hook up and be passed around like the church collection plate, but after spending some time in that world a few years ago, I decided against it ultimately. It’s not for me. I am, instead, as the old song says, addicted to love. No, seriously I am.... my therapist predicted almost perfectly what would happen... that I would end up in a relationship based on false premises that played into my serial desire to be and feel loved.... I’m not sure where I fall in all of this, but I am hoping to find out soon."
4. What opportunities do you have currently for being out and about, or socializing and playing as a woman? What is your process of dressing, doing your face and hair and choosing your clothes to go out as Candace? Tell us all the sexy details, lol?
"Well I always have opportunities :) Right now I am staying away from being too social, since I am leaving the area in a couple of weeks... I have already met some very nice FL people in the N.Y.Cl area that are willing to take me out and show me the town. I am really looking forward to it."
"As for what I pick to dress, I kind of know through trial and error what does and doesn’t look good on my body. Sometimes that eliminates some really awesome looking slutwear, because it just looks all wrong on me. I am really looking forward to getting into the colder weather where I can start layering up and looking like some fierce Russian spy girl."
"My process for makeup is pretty simple. I had my colors and everything picked by a makeup artist and I keep a good stock of the foundation she recommended for me. I make little triangles of blush on the apples of my cheeks. I stay away from excessive eyeshadow, especially anything blue or approaching blue. As for clothes, I love little skirts and tight sweaters. You can do a lot with a good wool miniskirt and a turtleneck. Some light jewelry helps too. Some people have noticed I have a thing for pearl necklaces, which is very true. Make your own dirty joke there :)"
5. Finally, the only clue I've seen so far about your sexual preferences as a woman are your shy reference to your Oral Skills….lol. Would you share an early experience with you in the role of a woman, or submissive that triggered you into full arousal and lust for you? And draw us a perfect evening of romance, foreplay and sexuality for you?
"OK, so an early experience. I was still in college and just sort of learning my way around my nascent girliness. I came across a message board posting about someone who was looking to host t-chicks that didn’t have their own spaces to explore and dress up. So I answered the ad and exchanged a few emails... and he had a thing for girls like me. I showed him some my early pictures (sadly these pics are all lost now) and I seemed to get his attention."
"With some nervous trepidation, I went over to his place and started modelling outfits.... I tried on maybe four or five outfits for him, did little walks across his living room carpet and when I finally got through with the last outfit he told me that watching me had really turned him on and that he wanted... (me) to help him out. I was pretty naive and asked him what he meant and he just sort of bluntly said that he wanted me to suck his cock."
"At that point I had never done that, so I stammered nervously but he was insistent that I needed to stop being a tease and not leave him like that. And so I did. I closed my eyes and took him into my mouth and did the best I could with zero experience. I was surprised by how crampy my mouth felt after but I did enjoy it and he obviously did too. He came in my mouth without really telling me, so I ended up coughing half of it back up but he was very satisfied just the same."
"I was almost shocked how much it turned me on, not so much the act, but being led into it like that. He turned out to be kind of an asshole later, but I will always have a soft spot for that afternoon."
"And for perfect evening of romance, I am pretty easy to please. I don’t have the first clue how to cook, so any guy that cooks for me is already half way there. I like a good bottle of wine and some funny conversation. I like to laugh. So gentlemen, if you are funny and know how to cook, you are almost guaranteed an amazing sexual experience from me. Oh and buy me something pretty too, just to be safe."
