This comes from a different part of my subconcious. I am not sure if it's the beta or the female part, but who cares.
I like keeping myself smooth everywhere. I am fairly smooth already, but I have a small amount of hair on my legs, my chest, down there in front, plus a small amount in back. Body hair is such an Alpha thing; it's inconsistent with being a beta, so off it must go. Besides it's fun emotionally to sit in the tub filled with warm water a few times a week and just let the razor glide everywhere and keep myself nice and smooth.
So I began looking for videos about waxing, and I became wuite excited when I found some like this:
It's an attractive young woman being waxed by another attractive yourng woman in a non-sexual way and with her kitty on open display. Apparently, its not the first time she's done this, as she's completely at ease both showing her privates and while the technician applyies the wax and then zips it off. She starts out with a bit of hair up front, but by the end, it's completely gone; then she's told to roll over and get a small amount of wax around her in back, and the tech uses a tweezers to remove a few hairs that got missed. Shows how much she likes doing a good job. ( I think I want to be one of them kinda bad, but that's sumpin else - lol )
Here's where it gets a little bit different. I imaging an Alpha male approaches the girl on the table while her legs are splayed opened. As he walks, his long, heavy cock swings from side to side like a pendulum. It's hypnotics for me at least, and probably for her, too. He walks up with his long, thick cock extending out, then hooks his arms under her legs and raises them up, kinda trapping her, but she you can tell she doesn't really mind because she raises herself up on her elbows to see what's going on.
His cock head bushes against his legs, and he glances at me, and I know what he wants. I walk over a little bit nervous and take the middle of his thick cock in my hand and let the head rest right near her pussy without actually touching it. She starts getting a little bit frantic. All the touching and stimulation from the technician waxing her little pussy really got to her,, but she kept her cool. She didn't expect this to happen, and it's a bit too much for her.
I let the head of the fat 9.5-inch by 7.5-inch cock brush across her pussy lips. (nothing like my 3.9-inch beta cock )She's getting bit restless, but she can't let that show just yet, because me, the technician and the Alpha will think she's a little slut. He slowly presses the head in, gently parting her completely smooth pussy lips. She drops her head back while she thinks "this can't be happening to me."
I still have my hand around the Alpha's cock. He's put an inch or so more in, making her start to shift her hips. I am in awe of the power of this thick cock over this woman's body & mind, and the waxing technician sees it on my face and realizes I am a true beta who is scared to admit how much he really enjoys being one. She laughs a bit inside while thinking, "go ahead and enjoy it, little beta. You know how much you like it."
The Alpha starts giving the girl on the table longer strokes, and I have to let go for him to properly fuck her. It's OK, because I see his cock start to glisten. She can't deny she likes it, because that's her wetness making the shaft of that long, thick cock all wet & slippery. She tries biting her lip, but it's really no use, so she starts to raise her hips up off the table to get more of him inside her smooth little snug pussy.
He's really inside her, and there's no use holding back, so she says to him "fuck me, please!" The Alpha smiles to himself, because he knows he's making himself another mindless slut who will open her legs when he needs her to. She arches her back, and starts to cum. He cums deep inside her, but saves a little to dribble out on her smooth pussy. He then motions for me to come over. I take my hand and squueze his thick cock at the base, and squueze it along the length of the seminal tube to make all his semen run out on her pussy, then I take a towel and dab his wet cock until all of him is off her. He excuses himself, leaving just the girl, the technician, and me.
The tech knows what I'm about to do and sees I'm a bit embarrassed, but she just smiles. I kneel before the young woman and use my tongue to lap up all the Alpha cum and leave her pussy as clean as it before all this started. It's actually kinda sweet, and quite rubbery, so I'm really not able to contain myself very well as I eagery clean her labia. The tech is really amused seeing a beta who can't control himself, but I'm so focused on getting this little pussy clean like a beta's mean to after being filled will all the sweet cream. I'm hoping a little bit inside will ooze out. I finish, and I notice she has a little sweat on her legs, tummy, and forehead after being fucked so thoroughly by a large Alpha cock, so naturally I take another towel and dab that off of her, so can put on her bra & panties and get dressed.. The tech is gratified by what she's seen, and I leave not knowing why I did that and enjoyed it. I'm just overcome by the privilege of watching a sexy woman get thoroughly fucked.
Females and Alphas are meant to be catered to by betas, I guess.
Society may snicker at us, but it's who we are inside.
I am in dire need of a brat tamer - for myself,of course.
Someone who can correct my thinking. An Alpha male could make me sit on the floor and hold his semit-erect cock in my face and order me to remain still. He could drag it across my face, smack it on the side if he chose, or just brush it across my lips, but not permit me the privilege of sucking it. That would have to wait until he chose the time to let the head of his cock rest on my lower lip. The temptation to want to press my tongue out and wiggle it around under the tip is enough to make my beta head swim, but I know better than to make the decision by myself.
He's growing, and now the head starts pressing harder against my lips, making them part. I can feel my mouth water as my lips open and encircle the fat knob. It's starting to twitch, and I feel sweat break out on my forehead not knowing if I have permission to start bobbing my head back and forth and worship the phallus like my beta mind instructs me.
He makes the decision for me as he rests his hand on my head to hold it still and pump his hips slowly. He's chosen to fuck my face, and I feel overjoyed that he's decided to use me this way. He's in total control. His Alpha mind is joined to my weak beta mind. He downloads instructions from his brain, across through his dick, into my mouth and up into my beta mind. My tongue swirls around his cock head and wiggles under the tip, and all of my actions are completely determined by him. I don't have to think.
There's more to this, but my mind can't go there quite yet. Maybe it's time for a little alcohol, so I can access the things I need to and go the places I am still afraid to go.
Genetic females are of course superior. They can concieve and bring into this work human life with a male cannot even hope to do. I will bow down to them now.
I am meant to please; there is not other way around it. But the level of discomofrt I can withstand is embarassingly low. I should be able to equal her:
http://sendvid.com/3p55xw1k
It's my destiny & all, but I don't know how to get there.
I have been chaste for nine months. At first, it was a new experience, but I wanted to do this, so I could channel my energy into serving others.
At first, the tension was almost unbearable. I was/am doing this entirely mentally, with just my ditzy mind :); no keyholders for me. But I knew it was right for me. I'm better able to prioritize pleasing & making myself useful to others.
Love,
Miko
A Super or two inside feels oh so nice . . . but I need a regular to plug things up. After an hour, when those Supers start to expand, it's too much. I'm doubled up on the floor in a fetal position in so much discomfort. But after a while, I feel different. Pain is good, isn't it? lol It's my destiny, I think, my raison d'être.
Will try a couple of vodka soaked tonight when I get off work . . . someone "volunteered" me to come in on a Sunday . . . the price of being a doormat.
love,
Miko
It really does. It's been a couple of hours, but there's a dull throb. That's what happens when I practice deep throating a dildo. It's about 6-1/2", and I can take it all the way. I can keep it there about 10 seconds some times, then the convulsions come.
I am moving in the right direction, but I'm not in the fast lane. I discovered I like having a couple of red hots or an Atomic Fireball in my mouth - just another thing to distract my mind. The amount of saliva on my desk after 10 minutes is really something. I uploaded a pic or two of how it looks, but haven't made it public. Ask me about it, and I'll send it to you, though, along another couple thrown in for good measure.
I just made a new caption today. This is my first caption in over 1 year.
I don't know why I have such problems revealing my weaknesses - my body feels an urge and sends a signal to my brain, but my brain doesn't know what to do with it.
I wish my tiny 3.75" cock were even smaller, and my marbles the size of peanuts!
miko
I spent about 4 hours at work today looking at sissy-training videos, the ones that flash all sorts of images. They are kinda hypnotic.
I took my femme lotion bottle to the bathroom twice today and played with my little clitty until it spurted. Last week I took Miss Linda's lotion when she was away from her desk and used it to masturbate. I spurted inside the bottle. Now when she spreads the lotion on her hands she is spreading me there.
