A little bit more about me (in more detail)! ...so you know what i am.
So....
I am a male bi-sexual submissive crossdresser. I was previously owned by a Dom for 7 years. I am currently uncollared and seeking a new Master who is interested in keeping a slave long-term and exploring the wonderful work of kink and BDSM with me.
I am NOT a genetic female or transsexual, but a male who cross-dresses. I keep myself well groomed, usually always keep my body smooth and shaved and fem. Also I must state at the onset I am not overly interested in anal sex (though i am open to it with the right person/Dom)...if u r ONLY interested in sticking it up my ass then I am not the one for you and you'd be seriously disappointed...otherwise please read on :)
A final Caveat: I Do Not cam or submit online via cam. Not into cyber roleplays, only interested in IRL meetups! Also not a fan of phone/voice chats. I much prefer to have that convo face-to-face, in person or initially via messaging here. So pls don't as ask me to cam or for my mobile number! I don't like saying no and that puts me off. Thanks for respecting those wishes.
A bit about me and my kinks/fetishes:
I think of myself as an Inferior Sissy Faggot/Slave, specifically looking for White Master/Mistress to be their sissy slave, toilet slave, human dog/pet.
I have a huge armpit fetish.....i immensely enjoy sniffing armpits, its been a lifelong fetish of mine. i love nothing better than to sniff and lick a pair of clean and beautifully scented pits.
I also absolutely love people pissing on me, its my second favorited kink in the world. I like the idea of a group of men pissing on me at the same time or being chained down at a public urinal for an entire day (imagine the possibilities)!!! I have been drinking my own urine for many years now and recently a few years ago I had the privilege of drinking piss from another person (ex Dom). The feeling and the experience was simply un-describable and out of this world. I have had some training since then so hopefully with further training I'll be able to drink lots more and serve as a urinal/piss slave for my Master.
I like the idea of being kept wet and smelling of my Dom's urine on me for a while. Love the feeling of that dried smelly stale piss on my skin all day long. Also enjoy cum deposited on various areas of my body, like on my face, pubes, and specially my armpits. After being cumed, pissed & spat on by my Dom I usually don't prefer to clean up for rest of the day (if possible), as I like to smell of His stale cum & piss on me, like I have been marked as his property with his scent!
i also have a strange fascination with bathrooms and toilets. I will always check out a bathroom if I can, and may even lift the lid of the toilet bowl and take a good sniff. i love the smell of public toilets and I have a lot of filthy fantasies that involve them (but never tried). I have a thing for cleaning toilets, kneeling and scrubbing with my hands. A recurring fantasy I have is that my Master has me in chains and shackles and cleaning toilets as a day job, all day, everyday. I feel I am too pathetic, lowly and inferior to be fit to do any other job. So if u are in Melbourne and have toilets to be cleaned, I might just be that slave to do it for you. I also like the idea of being made to "live" in a toilet, like u would a prisoner in a jail cell. i will eat and sleep there and spend my idle time there, chained to the wall.
I m into most aspects of BDSM (well, I will try it all once atleast...or even twice) :)
my favourite FETISHES among others (which makes for a rather long list), include foot & shoe worship, armpits, golden showers, nipple clamps, dog/puppy roleplay, face slapping, being flogged, being kept as a slave, sniffing, hot wax and lots of bondage/restrains.
I have a thing for older Dom men (and women) in general, in my experience they usually have more dirty imaginations, more kinky and experienced and know what they want, not time-wasters and knows how to treat a sissy slave like me. Having said that I can get along with anyone younger too as long as we have common interests, ideas and kinks/fantasies.
I have recently acquired an interest in playing out as a human dog/pet/pony roleplay. I would love to experience being a "pet dog" to a Dom Master...and try and make the roleplay as realistic as possible. It has captured my imagination and I now have a lot of kinky well formed fantasies in my mind about how I could be trained and transformed into a 24/7 human puppy/dog slave. I love the idea of being kept on all four for long periods of time, it feels so natural to me, taken for long dog walks in the evening (in the backyard if that were possible), until my hands and knees are sore. Fed scraps of left-over food thrown onto the ground and drink from dog bowls. Kept in a cage or kennel sometimes and wear a tight dog collar around my neck and be leash always.
as u must have gathered by now, I thrive on being humiliated, degraded and mentally/emotionally/verbally abused by master/mistress (sometimes in front of a group of like minded people for effect). I have a deep innate craving for "humiliation". Everything that I do or want done to me centres around that. I have heaps of filthy, dirty ideas/fantasies on how I should be degraded & shamed. When I m in my submissive headspace, I have this overwhelming need/craving to be made to feel a lowly, worthless and an inferior being.
I realize this may not be for everyone but I have been really getting into raceplay in the last few years (introduced to me by my Ex Dom)! I really enjoy the idea of being humiliated and degraded verbally with copious amounts of racial undertones by my white Master... even better if it were in front of group of like minded people who enjoy raceplay. It has been an eye-opener experience for me so far and I have delved quite deep into it in the short time I have been into raceplay. i have actually begun to crave this type of humiliation more and more and hope to incorporate this into play more deeply. I especially enjoy reading filthy comments about me...based on my skin colour, religion, ethnicity and then abused and degraded accordingly. I like to be called all sorts of nasty filthy things, and have them written all over my body with a marker pen sometimes. So if you are comfortable then feel free to speak your mind when you view my pics/profile and leave dirty comments/remarks on me..absolutely anything goes! I enjoy reading them immensely...I just get a huge KICK out of being called the most filthy, sick, dirty things that one can imagine.
I think deep down I believe that my salvation and true purpose in life is to offer my inferior slave body to the services of a superior white Master and for his pleasure, to be his house slave, used as His cum dump and piss pot/urinal. Each and every time I must kneel and bow my head when I present myself in front of Him.
Also, I want to explore the idea behind erotic blackmail with a willing and trusting Master...that would be the ultimate thing, Master having complete control over me where I m forced and compelled to do as Master orders or else risk exposure and humiliation that may transcend into my "vanilla" life. I have a desire to be exposed and my pics shared and spread around the net, knowing more men will view them and wank over them. Also I have this fantasy that someone who actually knows me (a friend & colleague) would find out what I really am...and the shame or humiliation that follows!
I am also mildly curious about the GOREAN lifestyle and Female Supremacy in general. Hope to learn more... I guess in some ways I have a very active imagination because I do think a LOT...i philosophise (lol). My mind is a very active breeding ground for ideas in terms of BDSM, slavery, Master-slave scenarios, servitude, raceplay and a host of other things and how they are tied to ones sexuality...they go very deep. I have never really shared these thoughts with anyone. if I wasn't a shy perhaps I would have been able to share these more openly. I sometimes feel I can write a book on it. its like the Gorean Philosophy of life. A set of strict rules and guidelines, code of conduct and rituals laid down and the explanations behind them...that govern every aspect of a slaves life.
At this point in time I am only looking for a Master/Mistress with whom I can go on a journey of exploration and learning. I have limits, quite a few for a slave but I want to test them and push the envelope with an understanding and willing Dom....that is what a BDSM journey is all about. I am not looking for purely sex per se, I believe sex is only a small part of the picture in such TPE/BDSM/Master-slave relationships and not the centre of it.
i want to test myself and see if i m really cut out to be a slave. So if you are looking for something similar please do drop me a line and we will take from there, hopefully have a deep discussion and see how it goes....
As mentioned earlier I m somewhat interested in an older Master/Mistress as I have found they are better able to understand me as the submissive and grasp the BDSM concept, and generally have more experience. Again that is not set in stone and I can see myself submitting to a younger Master if we have the right ingredients in play. Also I am a rather shy, introverted and geeky/odd sort of a person, as such I do not get along with just about anyone. It can be hard at times to find a compatible person that I might "click with" but I know and believe that there is a Master for me out there somewhere....patience I tell myself! Sometimes my shyness is easily mistaken for arrogance or aloofness but I m really a nice friendly person albeit a bit socially awkward but very loyal and trusty and I really open up once we get over that initial awkwardness and I get to know the person a bit. Trust is paramount!
In summary:
I see myself a slave first and foremost and then a sissy or anything else. I dearly hope to meet someone one day with whom I can explore in a deeper meaningful way, the TPE dynamics of a Master-slave lifestyle on a long-term timescale. From as far as I can remember as a young boy growing up exploring my sexuality, I have always pictured myself collared, shackled and domesticated, in servitude by a strong Dominant person. It just felt "normal and natural" to me. And that says it all about me in a nutshell.
top kinks/interests:
bondage/ropes/restrains
piss play/golden showers (receiving)
armpits
pet dog/puppy
crossdressing
Raceplay
breath play/nipple torture
Congratulations on reaching the END! :)
Feel free to get in touch if you find my profile interesting thus far and we can take it from there XOXOXO
