Look, I get it if you're not, and I'm not trying to change your mind believe me. Non-believers, your opinions on this top/discussion are certainly welcome (and may be very enlightening), but I'm particularly curious about the thoughts of those who consider themselves to be "religious" (in particular Christian).
I was mostly raised by my Grandma, who was a woman of very strong Christian faith (and the best human being that I've ever known). I went to a Christian church (Nazarene to be exact), and I had a deep faith into my teens. Then, as many young people do, I strayed. I went back to my faith in my twenties, and then fell away again. It's been sort of on and off ever since. Over the last year or so I've rediscovered my faith in way that is much stronger than before. However, as you can tell, I still indulge in pornography; and not the vanilla kind. We're talking serious "race play", "shemales" etc. I don't--or at least haven't yet--indulged in any of it for real, though it is something I want to try.
So short story long, lol. If you are a Christian (or someone of a more conservative religion that typically preaches against pornography and sexual activity outside of marriage), how do you reconcile these two very opposing parts of your lifestyle? Have you come to the conclusion that your God does not, in fact, forbid or look down upon masturbation/pornography/non-traditional sexual activity? Do you feel guilty after you indulge in this sort of
stuff?
I get that this board is the "Pit of fire" (kind of ironic, huh?), but I'm really not interested in name-calling or trolling. Again, if you don't believe in God, I understand. This topic really isn't about putting each other down for our beliefs. I just want to hear from people who deal with the guilt/shame/uncertainty of their faith and their desires.
I look forward to your thoughts, and thanks for reading this much longer than I'd originally intended question.