Ok so why am i so perverted and all over the place. Well I'd like to thank my childhood for that. And I'm grateful too.

My mum and dad never married and split up when I was young. My mum was quite feminist and my dad loved to fuck and saw women and girls purely as fuck toys and cock pleasers, somethig I would learn in my teens when I was allowed access to stay at my dads.

Being brought up by my mum I had a failry femine upbringing, although mum was a feminist in so many ways, she loved to dress up look pretty and go out and be the one to pull men. So there was not so much a string, but quite a few guys pass through our house, they didn't stay long, mum made sure of that. So I grew up looking at how she'd dress and act to have men, so grew up in my early years 'learning' what it was men liked. We lived next to a factory and i used to play there, the security gaurds used to kick us out if they caught us, until one day one caught me with my cock out looking at the lingerie section of a catalogue, I was 8. Instead of chasing me out, he got his cock out with me. Asked if I liked that and I was like wow yea, I said something stupid like thats what mum wears to get men it looks fun. He said something like you want to get men, and I was like yea. And thats how it started. I ended up sucking him and going back every evening he was on. He then brought friends which I thought was cool, he even got me a little school uniform and sexy underwear to wear. I remember feeling so happy and exciting.

 As I got older and went to senior school I had to hide these feelings, but still met with the guard and his friends but tried to fit in and tried to get girls but failed. If I did score, they'd end up laughing at me and my cock so I always went back to my guard and his friends. 

 It was at this time my Dad got in contact and I was allowed to spend weekends at his. This was a totally different world to at home. He had lots of porn, hardcore porn and he openly let me watch and look at it. He was a womaniser and fucked lots of goung girls and women and was wondering why I never had a gorlfriend. I didn't explain about the guards and dressing up for them and sucking them, but said I wasn't good with girls. He was shocked, told me I should be fucking and getting as much pussy as I can and that thats what it was all about. Basically telling me he left mum because she wasn't acting like a proper girl nd being a fuck wife and thats what girls are meant to be. He got me a few girls to fuck, told me to never ever wear condoms and any girl who asks is a stupid girl and ignore her. He got me watching lots more porn and telling me that is what it was all about, fucing girls. I was so confused. I tried to fuck girls at my dads, he always came back with them when I stayed, but never lasted long,,about 10 minutes before I cum, and I was attracted to them but I was also seeing guys and dressing up for them. I think if I was a girl my dad would have been happier as he often said if I ws a girl there would be a lot more fucking going on in his house.

As I was nearing the end of school, I stopped seeing the security guards as my mum and i had moved and it was hard to get to them but I still went to my dads and tried to be a man abd fuck girls.I was still a failure with girls at home.Things changed when I left school, moved away and went to Uni. This I will explain in a later blog.