Pretty well my life is over. After having my prostate surgically removed No man will pay to be with me as my cock continually leaks. I am in a constant state of having a plastic tie around the base of my cock to stop the piss coming out of the stump that is still there. At 45 years old I look more like an ugly guy in drag than before to the point that I do not even put makeup on each day. What's the use I can no longer afford the weekly maintenance visits to the hairdresser. The only occasional work I get is for extreme bondage parties, hung upside down by my ankles for long periods of time sucking cocks and having my arse penetrated by whatever the guests fancy to stick up there. 

A couple of months ago a guy offered to look after me, feed me and in return all I had to do was satisfy him every now and again. Boy was that a mistake. A total masachist who delighted in hurting and scaring me 24 hours a day. In the end he was arrested after neighbours complained about the noise coming from his rented apartment. That was me in constant bondage with body parts retricted in directions that they she not have been going. Brandings with an iron and cigarettes. Pierced areas torn apart, breasts in constant bondage with electrical wire. Wire wrapped tightly around my waist and my cock. Tongue piercing hooked to the piercing in the tip of my nose until I accidentley tore it out with a cock down my throat.

The punishment for the rest of the week came close to killing me. Electrodes on my eye brows, nose, tongue, nipples, through the tip of my cock and one up my arse hole 24 hours a day for a week. On a timer I got a charge every 15 minutes. Nothing to eat or drink. Urinating over myself and shitting where I was tied down for the next few days.

The cops broke in to find me being beaten or the arse with a belt strap as I was forced to lick up the mess I had created.

Currently living in a home unit through the generosity of an old tranny friend but not sure how long that can go on for. Never go out. Too embaressed.  

 Still get turned on in the head with the whole helpless crossdresser thing but no way to relieve myself.