So I fully expect no one to read this but i have been told it is good to write things down.

 So I am in a relationship with a girl I love. Due to many reasons we don't have a great sex life. Throughout my life i have been fascinated my womens clothes and shoes. When I was younger I was involved with a lady much older than me and she indulged me and let me crossdress when making love. Due to our age gap we never were/could be a couple but we always stayed in touch.

So fast forward and I am still struggling with my sexuality. I love my partner and don't want to hurt her but as we never have sex the spark isn't there. Plus she has told me that she thinks crossdressing is weird. So I have kept my secret from her. There is something missing in my life and I don't know what it is. I go into Ann summers just to talk about sexy clothing (pretending it is for someone else) I get a kick from it!

 So not sure what to do, if anyone wants to help me I'd just quite like a friend to chat to. Just want to feel wanted and sexually appreciated