I wrote this the other day to a cuckolded friend who has been very supportive to me. I thought I should add it to my blog for everyone to read how far I've been dropped by my wife. 

This has all been a total shock to me after so many years as the husband, father and authority in the household. The other night when Teresa told me to strip as we were both going to bed I thought she was finally going to open up sex, something she hasn't done in many years. In fact for years she's turned down all sexual advances, but not in any nasty way. This time she waited till I was naked and then she took off her clothes too. She's good to look at even now being somewhat younger than me and I was beginning to anticipate some sex. My cock began to rise and I went to hold her and she backed up and said "Stop. Stand at the bottom of the bed. I want to look at you".

That surprised me but I did it. She had a different sort of tone in her voice. Then she got up onto the bed and stood up naked right by the pillows and staring at me. With her up there and me at the foot of the bed I suddenly felt quite small and I KNEW something had changed.

Then she started and by the time she finished I was in tears. This is what she told me ...

First she told me to listen carefully and then repeat each new condition back to her because this was going to be her rules from now on. I had to listen till she finished and then I had a choice. I would in future do and behave as she said or if I didn't agree to, I could go. Leave the family home and go off and do whatever I wanted but have nothing more to do with her or my daughter. She didn't actually say 'go off' she said "fuck off". I've never heard her use that language before.

Then she said I did not excite her sexually at all and hadn't for years. Her words were - "I look at you standing down there and you make my vagina dry up. For years you have left me in a sexual desert and I need a real man." Her exact words. Then she said if I was a real man, I would not be standing down there taking it from her like that. My chances were all used up and she would never accept any orders from me ever again. If I stayed around it would be her making the rules, including how I would behave if she decided to take "satisfaction" from any any other man. Then she started to touch her pussy and pull at her lips, all this time fixing me with her stare and said 'or another woman' .

I was really shocked by this and sat down. Then she shouted at me to stand up again. I did but I was in tears.
"Do you understand? I am in charge of YOU from now on. Well???" I said "Yes Teresa" and "I want to stay, because I love you". That didn't cut much ice but I still do love her, you see. By now I was beginning to understand where and what I was. I'm not stupid and I knew that either I was out, or I was a cuckold and her servant. And I can just tell all of you that that is what I now am.

She had changed. I hardly knew her. I don't know who she had been talking to or what she had been reading but she laid it out for me. There were other rules. Some make me feel very uncomfortable and some terrify me. 

I must not try to interfere if she decides to see other men. If she goes out I must stay at home and not try to follow her. I must serve her exactly as she directs me to. That may be as her butler, or her dresser or, as she put it as her 'body servant'. I agreed that readily. That is enough for me to stay.

She said that if I ever met any of her personal friends, I must always be very respectful. My respect must show, she said, especially if I happened to meet any of her male friends. That makes me a bit uncomfortable. She says she has not told anyone about my new position and status - but she would want ME to explain it to selected friends - she would say which ones and when - for me to spell out to them that I am a cuckold and to do it face to face. I am cringeing inside at the thought of having to do that. I know many of her friends and they know me. God knows what they going to think of me now.

And the worst bit - she said that at some point in the future, she would want me to explain it all to our daughter. Me tell her. My daughter is a divorced adult now but she was always wayward as a child and I was often quite hard on her back then. Physically hard sometimes. I don't know how she will react if I have to inform her I have agreed to being a cuckold.

I know I accepted Teresa's conditions but I still don't know if and how I can go through with this. I am very mixed up. Almost traumatised, it feels.

I will write more when I feel more settled down, because I don't feel that way at all right now.