The other night we went out to El Saltillos to eat and you told me how you always keep an eye out for Isaac at work in case he should show up.  That is beyond exciting to hear you say that about him.  I like the fact you are trying to find him because you are interested in him as a man and a lover.  It was impressive to hear how you say you look at all the tall muscular black men to make sure it isn't him.  That is such a turn on.  Isaac must have made quite an impression on you because you always talk about his height and his muscles.  From what you have said it sounds like he had your attention long before I brought up the fact I wanted to watch you sleep with a well endowed black man and that too is exciting to hear.  I imagine you being around him and noticing him in ways that aroused you and made you "curious" about him.  And I'd like to believe you thought about him as a black man and the size of his manhood and it being very large and being somewhat interested in finding out what it would be like to have him make love to you.  You telling me you would pull him to the side and asking him if he had time to meet you at the Holiday Inn after you got off work just blows my mind because it tells me you are indeed thinking about him making love to you at this point and I cannot wait to watch him with you.  You wanting to be with a black man is beyond exciting. I see you as your own person with desires that are beyond my control and wanting to sleep with a well endowed black man sounds like a fantasy coming true for you.  I want to watch him control you in bed, to see your expression as you see the size of his manhood and the expression on your face as you take him inside you and you realize a black man is making love to you and you feel his size and power move within you as I watch.

You know I was not always like this Helen, in fact I was the exact opposite.  I guess attitudes change, I know mine did and I know I want to watch you with a black man.  I know you expressed concern that you did not want this being something I needed to be sexual with you and it isn't but I do identify with the lifestyle of you being a wife who craves black men and me a husband who enjoys watching you.   I cannot deny that it turns me on knowing yolu would choose Isaac as a lover because he could be very well endowed and that you want a man like that to make love to you.  Men worry about their wives knowing about some guy who is well endowed and thyat they "think" about him. Hell, I worried about the guys you were before me and that at least one of them was well hung but you just never wanted to tell me about him and sometimes it is almost unimaginable you did not meet at least one guy who was hung.  The thing is I do not care that Isaac's cock is much bigger than mine, a little envious maybe, the onlt thing I care about is that you want to be with him because he is bigger  than me and that you find a him a great lover and a newfound pleasure in bed with a man whose manhood brings forth emotions you never knew before as a woman.  I hope you understand all that?     

Another thing, I enjoy knowing we are a unique couple that can indulge our darkest fantasies.  I like knowing you are untraditional and the rules do not apply to you as a wife.  That you are a woman seeking out your own desires, that you compartmentalize this and that you and a black man can your own entity.  I know this is not "normal"  but we have done normal our whole lives.  I never dreamed we would be like this but here we are and I really like it.   

Had an interesting thought where if it was just you and I that went to the Buffet for dinner and out of nowhere Isaac showed up.  What the hell would you do? What would you want me to do?  You could introduce us and ask if he had a minute to sit and talk that "my" huband has a question to ask you.  It might take me a minute but I think I could manage to proudly ask him  "would you like to make love to my wife and we understand if you are uncomfortable with the question but that my wife has told me a lot about you and I would consider it a priviledge if you were to say yes?" And if the answer was yes I would add "the one caveat is I get to watch you both but I will do it in a way that is respecful and unintrusive."  If he said yes what the hell do we do?

On the other hand perhaps you would be taking charge.  I could see you giving him this huge hug and getting excited to just see him knowing what we have discussed as a couple and asking him come sit with us for just one second, I need to ask you something.  Once we are sitting we order some drinks and after a bit of casual conversation and catching up you say something to the effect "I want to ask you aquestion but do not answer right away." Then you perhaps admit "look I've always considered you a nice man and I want to know if you would like to go to a hotel with my husband and I and make love to me while he watches but before you say anything let me explain. Several years ago my husband asked to watch me with another man and the first person I thought of was you andthere is a reason for that.  I've told my husband all about you and said you would be perfect and the reason you would be perfect is because my husband wants to watch me with a black man and when he said that I thought of you right away.  And I am going be honest,  I've never slept with a black man and you would be my first and I love the idea it is you because I find you attractive and ever since we worked together I had this thing for you anyway.

If he said yes would we do it right then and there which I think we would.  We go find a hotel room and we get there first so you can freshen up then he arrives 30 minutes later. we sit and talk and pehaps I confide we are into the interracial lifestyle and are happy that he is there and then I present you to him by saying I am going bow out now and just leave you and Helen alone.