I just posted this epiphany on my Tumblr page:

"I am a submissive sissy faggot who lives to serve her Mistress.  I serve to earn Her indulgence to let me feminize myself into a mindless docile obedient little transvestite fuck toy.  

My life is like being trapped on a wheel of bliss, where submission earns further feminization from Mistress while feminization makes me ever more deeply submissive.  I am trapped.  It is heaven!"

And then it occurs to me, that I may ask my Mistress to control my orgasms such that I never cum without Her permission!  If She keeps me to an interval of no less than 10-14 days, that would suffice to keep me permenently horny, which makes me crave to be feminized and dressed, which makes me become incredibly submissive, which leads me into fits of domestic obedience to Mistress, which She ultimately findss that She likes, which leads to Her rewarding me with feminization and orgasm control.  Ergo, I am a slave!

I think my life just changed.  

Heidi

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