"Call it abusive or what not. When I was I'll just say 18 I was pretty much as I am today, a tall skinny guy. Pretty much describe me as a computer nerd; most exercise I do is long distance running. Anyway, I got involved with an older woman who was an instructor at a gym my mom went to and I signed up for. She was quite pursuasive in wanting to be 'my friend' and at one point I was in a training room alone with her and she literally overpowered me and forced me to have sex. Forced me to penetrate. It was confusing and arousing at the same time and I never told anyone. But I was also kind of fucked up by it. To this day I look for women who are older and look physically capable of overpowering me. Just fucking holding me down, pulling down my pants and putting me in her despite my struggling. And yes. I have been able to find this several times from several women. So thats my story."