...as the balloon flies up past Six or Seven...

I'm dressed every day.  

Dressing is slightly more erotic on those days when I commit to seriously getting through the day without dressing.

Getting high makes me feel submissive and efemminate.  So far, the curve is simply linear; there is no "too high" where feeling "too submissive" or "too efemminate" are concerned.  This should concern me, but,

I spend much of every day in a haze of sissified arousal, most of which passes as a soft, pink, blissful delerium.

I just about never get hard anymore.  My cock is tiny most of the time.  I don't care.  It just makes me feel hornier, in a mindless, feminized, submissive bimbo fuck doll sort of way.

I am almost unrecognizable by character or behaviour to the person I was last year.  I'm sluttier, more submissive, more feminized, more compulsive about dressing, smoking, porn, and especially sissy hypnosis.  I just love letting my mind get emptied and reprogrammed.  I just love files that start wtih, "will turn you into a cock-addicted sissy faggot!"  I love the feeling of coming out of trance to find myself all dressed as a sissy faggot transvestite hypno-slave, laying on the couch in a drugged state of aroused bliss.  

So, that's what I am.  I need to go DEEPER.