Hi everyone just a short little blog. Hope you're having a wonderful day. A more downbeat blog today, sorry. Still hope you enjoy and hope the best for ya. :)

Relationships 

I'm not ready for a relationship in this point of my life. I'm having so much trouble with my mental health, and I just can't handle the expectations and pressure. I'm not healthy and I need to get better, before i could ever think about that stuff... and that's something that's going to take years to do. I feel so broken. I'm not well, and I won't be for a very long time...

Don't be an A-hole

Hey so just thought I would talk about this real quick. I had two douche bags treat me like utter trash. They were pushy, called me manipluative. They were controling and possessive. The one I knew for grand total of 2 days. They treated me like an idiot. They called all my feeling untrue, and just made me feel worthless... so please just be nice. The funny thing was they were both ninilistic cis men (but than again I don't have much luck with any man), making my tolerance very low. I know that's awful to say, and I'm sorry.

 Sorry I'm being mean and complaining

Just been dealing with a lot. heck I had to deal with one of those a-holes when my depression was full swing. Its funny too, since they didn't think I actually had depression, they thought I said I did for attention. Sorry, just a lot on my head, and people have really been getting to me as of late.

 Why post on here

Becaus I just wanted people to know where I'm at. I'm not in a place to really have a relationship yet. Sorry I just needed to say that. And I needed people to know.

 Please don't laugh at me

Even when I seem to be making fun of myself... I hate when people look at me just as a joke. I've been treated so badly, and my identity in real life is treated as only a joke. I'm just so tired of feeling that way...

 I'll talk to Anyone 

But I do kind of have preferences. I always like talking to anyone, so don't be afraid, I might bite though. I always love finding trans girls I can chat with. And I have a soft spot for sissies. I don't mind talking to men, just please forgive me, because my patience has been really drained from all these encounters. And cis woman, I think I talk to a few of ya too, would gladly talk to ya. Sorry if I seem a bit sexist, its just easier right now to talk to some people who have a better grasp of where I'm coming from. 

 Sorry and have a great day, just had to say this :/  Sorry again