I'm still here, purpetually falling into the Rabbit Hole [4, and toking].  I find myself rid of doubt, as if some tumbers clicked inside my head, and my personality opened.  

It is perverse that the dawning of any real perspective upon one's plight is so diabolically synchronized with one's increasing helplessness.  I am addicted to porn, weed and hypno-feminization; a side effect of which seems to be intense levels of satisfaction that I am addicted to porn, weed and hypno-feminization.  It's real!  It's happening!  I am a sissy faggot transvestite brainwashed cock-sucking feminzied submissive hypno slave.

I NEED TO GO DEEPER.

Even if you found yourself dressed like a sissy slut, tied and blindfolded, drugged and filled, with a cock in each end?

I MUST OBEY.

Even if your wife got tired of your prancing sissy ass, and dressed you like a slutty maid, and dragged you on a leash through the neighbourhood?

I CRAVE TO BE TRANSFORMED INTO A PRANCING PINK EFFEMINATE SISSY FUCK DOLL.

Even if you were left a quasi-brainless, cock-addicted, tranny submissive?

TRAIN ME.  PROGRAM ME.  BRAINWASH AND HYPNOTIZE ME.  FEMINIZE ME.  FUCK ME.  MAKE ME OBEY AND SERVE AND SUCK AND GROW BLISSFULLY DELERIOUSLY IRREVERSIBLY MINDLESSLY HORNY. [7 and still climbing]