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So many days have gone since I wrote the first lines about this, that's right my gallery. I clearly remember how hard it was. It felt quite dirty as if nudity were something bad or so. For many people, and so for me it was a bad thing. If you're always told not to show nude in front of anyone else, you will have the same opinion for certain. I used to be captured in that vicious circle for so long; too long I say.
But I have become a changed man. Just a bit older, less shy, and a lot freer. I know I'm complicated, especially in the simple things. So when I look back now, I see that I was like a slave of my so prudish attitude where other people might feel it the other way: to be a slave of your sexuality.
Anyway. I was stricken by my puritan morality. I was so inhibited I'd feel like a whore when I took nude pictures for the first time. Then I was just as tired of accusing, justifying and darning myself for what I am.
And when I stopped self-destruction, it happened all by itself and learned to get over my old problems.
Years later as well as ten thousand times after, I don't have them but I feel better. That's enough for me.
So many days have gone since I wrote the first lines about this, that's right my gallery. I clearly remember how hard it was. It felt quite dirty as if nudity were something bad or so. Today I am a changed man. Just a bit older, less shy, and a lot freer. When I look back now, I see that I was like a slave of my so prudish attitude where other people might feel it the other way. Anyway. I was so inhibited I'd feel like a whore when I took nude pictures for the first time. And when I stopped self-destruction, it happened all by itself and learned to get over my old problems. Years later as well as ten thousand times after, I don't have them but I feel better. That's enough for me.
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