Hi all,

I don't really have much to do with the "festive season" but this year I decided I was going to treat myself, well in advance. The time had come, it seemed to me, to do something about my Asian obsession. I currently have a black lover, a Nigerian woman who is 23 years older than I am, so young by my standards. She isn't exactly happy about my lifestyle, even though she doesn't know the extent of it. Things have changed since she came on the scene last year. Nowadays I am only seeing clients at the weekend, and now the deal is that Mrs Chabot and I, most weekends, go away with a client who wants a good fucking, that's exactly what I give her, and on the second night when the client is asleep, I give Mrs Chabot herself a good long fuck. It's passed off as a "special fitness weekend" and my black lover, Toyah, is extremely jealous. That's just because I'm seeing other women, she doesn't know I fuck them. I try to explain these are just older ladies who "need help", as I tell her, "with fitness", so I present myself as being very unselfish, doing good for others. It has actually started to make me feel quite bad. At the same time, I am having some intensely good sex with Toyah, she is an extremely erotic woman and I enjoy fucking her, I really do, and I don't want it to stop.

It has been very very hard, being on my "best behaviour" during the week. At least I have managed for the time being to remain living alone, so I can do what I want, and spend many nights viewing porn and masturbating. A couple of nights each week I spend with Toyah in the flat she is renting halfway across town, but otherwise I am left to my own devices, which I like. When I'm alone, I try to enjoy all my old habits as much as I can, thinking that some day, before maybe too long, I won't be able to indulge myself so freely. So most nights I spend alone in the dark with a computer, online, looking at cunt of various colours, fucked, masturbating, penetrated, pierced, pissing, with my cock hard inside a pair of lubricated pantyhose as I like it, cockring in place to keep me as hard as possible, erect, vigorously pulling my cock around from side to side, up and down, inside the nylon, my naked glans tormented almost beyond belief in a mess of lubricating petroleum jelly and semen from earlier sessions, getting harder and harder, more and more stimulated, until finally I shoot my load through the material, all the while gazing at pictures on a slideshow, or a video, of naked asian and black women and their sexual, favourites including Hitomi Tanaka in the shower washing her huge japanese tits, Misty Stone holding her cunt open so wide with her fingers that I can clearly look down into her vagina and see her cervix, her pisshole clearly visible too, and so so erotic. I love to wank myself off every night, several times, and I very much enjoy having "themed" wanking sessions, for example a "Yui Okada wank night", or an "Asian Ruby wank night", a "Diamond Jackson wank night" or whatever, and I always end up in a filthy mess of dripping, soaking nylon, semen spattered in various unintended places too, usually the force of my ejaculation is so great and I have so very little control over the initial direction, and that's even on the third or fourth ejaculation of the night. I do find that after each ejaculation I do need to wait, and sometimes I feel the need to take off the pantyhose I am masturbating in, for some relief, and to clean up some of the mess and re-lubricate, other times I keep them on and just and more and more petroleum jelly, until the slightly unpleasantly-moist-feeling semen is submerged in a thick layer of goo across the whole crotch area. I should also add that, while pantyhose with a single central seam are more pleasing aesthetically, for masturbation purposes, I prefer, with absolute conviction, the kind which has a double seam, so that I can stroke the inside with my nylon-constrained cock without any kind of interruption from a ridge. Sometimes I do like that though, to have the ridge and use it itself as a masturbation aid, but by and large, I go with the double seam, it's just more comfortable. Lovely to get the pantyhose on, cockring on, high heels on, penis erect, gusset lubricated, glans stroked continuously from side to side for hours and hours and hours, it's such a delicious feeling!

But back to the main story... So yes, I decided to treat myself. Instead of just masturbating at home, I kind of decided that I would get various things "out of my system" before I give everything up and settle down to a more normal sort of life, with Toyah, living with her and having her as my only fuck-outlet. Actually I think it's going to make me extraordinarily horny and I can imagine a time I'm content just to fuck Toyah for my pleasure (and of course masturbate and look at porn in secret, not to mention having occasional weekends away for "special fitness"). So I had to do something, as I said, about my asian obsession.

Some years ago, in a temporary job I had, I knew an asian woman (chinese family) "Liz" who was 18 years old at the time, big-titted (unusually so for a chinese woman, DD I'd say), high-heeled, dressed like a slut, saying her ambition was to "be a pornstar". I always wanted to fuck her but I just became her friend instead. I met her again several months ago. I already knew she had been working as an "exotic dancer", stripping off on a raised platform in front of a crowd, showing off her naked body, her ass, her tits, her cunt. I went to see the show at her invitation (she already knew I was fine with this kind of work and that I'd be friendly to everyone). I have to admit, it turned me on so much, seeing her naked in front of me, her tits and nipples on display (I noticed that her nipples were erect), her legs spread, bald cunt delicious to look at, that I went home afterwards (after several hours, I stayed a long time talking to all the girls) and masturbated, several times, thinking of fucking Liz in various positions, watching her tits swing. Pure fantasy though, although I love her dearly, I just can't bring myself to make a move, anyway she's got a boyfriend, some nerd I don't particularly like, who I assume gives her the anal sex she specifically told me she is into. For all I know, she doesn't even allow him to fuck her in the vagina, but personally that's how I think it is. She wants to go against everything orthodox.

So I hung around with Liz for a while, and I'm still doing that, which is nice, because I get to see her naked regularly and get to masturbate over her too (which I haven't mentioned to her, and if she asked I would deny it). A week or so after I'd started going to see Liz's act (and by now I knew all the girls and sat talking to them most afternoons) a girl came in I hadn't seen before. She looked chinese, that's the first thing I noticed, the second thing I noticed was she seemed to be almost totally titless. As well as that, she had beautifully curved shoulders, a sexy waist, gorgeous hips thighs and crotch, pretty much the kind of girl most of my fantasies revolve around. I do fantasise about big-breasted women, but for whatever reason, there is nothing quite like the sight of a horny-cunted flat-chested asian woman for getting me sexually aroused.

The girl's name is Mellie, short for Melanie or Melody, she says she has used both, and Mellie sounds the most like her Chinese name. She's a student and believe it or not, she is earning a substantial amount of money she uses to pay fees, breaking most of the "taboos" she was brought up with, so that includes stripping off with men watching her, and, as it turns out, being a prostitute, but only for a very select few. I didn't realise at first that she was whoring, but just because she was such a stunning specimen of sexual titlessness, I came on to her pretty strongly before she went on stage. When she got up, Liz leaned over and told me "Mellie's a whore, you can fuck her if you want". That did excite me straight away, and later that night I came home and, as usual, masturbated. I thought about Mellie. I decided to "go with the flow" and just carry on as normal.

So for the next little while, I hung out with Mellie as well as Liz, and I think it was obvious I was up for having sex for money, but personally I didn't want Liz to know the details. I ended up one evening outside the toilet door waiting for Mellie, holding a bag with some of her things in it. She came out and asked me "Did you smell my dirty panties?" but really I hadn't even looked in the bag. I just laughed, but said "No, but I bet they do smell wonderful". Obviously I was going to see where this would lead. Mellie told me, in a very understated way, "You can come and spend some time with me if you like, you can play with my body or do any kinky things you want, and I don't want you to say I'm your whore, but you will need to give me some money just because otherwise I would be maybe seeing someone else who would pay". She did tell me she only had a small number of "regulars" and they had to be clean, they had to be nice, they had to be no-trouble guys, and then she would let them do whatever they wanted, and yes, she did mean absolutely anything. She said she never allowed fucking without a condom, and she asked me did that bother me.

I told her "No that doesn't bother me at all. Actually I like it. Why's that? You want the truth?" and of course she said yes she did. I told her, just after one of the other girls popped her head around the corner shouting "Melli, you're on!" - whispering in her ear flirtatiously, I told her "I would like to do what you say, smell your dirty panties. I'd also like to get down between your legs and suck you. I'd like you to sit on my face and force me to suck you, force me to take your liquid and drink it all". I made her promise "Don't EVER tell Liz, please".

Since then, that has been our arrangement. Once a week certainly, or more often two, less often three times, I am spending the early evenings with Mellie sucking her cunt in various ways, and I'm happy with that. Sometimes my cock is restrained, sometimes it's free and I can masturbate, that depends on what Mellie decides, and she just lets me know by text message. She summons me and I go.

And how is all this going to go down with Toyah? Well I guess I'll kind of keep it under wraps, and we'll see how it goes with the idea of getting it out of my system. As I've said, I do rather like the idea of settling down with Toyah eventually, fucking her more or less non-stop is how I imagine it, in bed, on the floor, in the shower, in the garden, on any and all of the tables in the house, just fuck fuck fuck all the time is how I would like that to be, but not yet, I still want some wild oats thank you very much! I'm getting older but I'm still too young to stop fucking around and getting what is essentially a free ride (in both senses) from wealthy older women who happen to want my services. I'm just going to whittle it down to a few clients, let's say a maximum of twelve of them, the wealthiest, the fittest too of course (since I like them fit, I won't have them any other way), the most sexually satisfying, the kinkiest, and I will keep them going until they expire. By doing that I will be able to retire young with masses and masses of money, with a lot of my life ahead of me, many glorious years of fucking and other sexual adventure to think back on, and the prospect of then finally being with a big-titted black woman full-time, as my one and only partner. I will keep Mellie going as long as I can, I'll blog about her again...

Until later, have fun. Loving you all, Gero Dave.