This is kind of wild.  I'm sitting nude in my bed, in the bedroom I grew up in, playing on ImageFap with my parents in the next room.  I can't believe what a fully sexual being I've become.  On this day after Thanksgiving, I'm feeling grateful for it, and to the people who helped me acheive it.

It's hard to believe that 11 weeks ago, just two-and-a-half months, I was still a virgin.  This blog already chronicles how I went from that regretable state to my current appreciation of carnal love: my search for the right man to take my maidenhead; how Marie helped convince me to choose Chris; how I develped feelings for Marie, too, and how I consumated those; and, of course, how I did lose my virginity to Chris.

Thus, the first two people to whom I need to express my gratitude this year are Chris and Marie, but I need to mention another person of equal importance.  Besides Marie, who lives almost three hours from Chris, he has a lover named Karen who lives about 20 miles south of him.  Being that close, she spends most weekends at his house.  The weekend Chris took my virginity, Karen had just left on a month-long overseas business trip. That was why he picked that weekend to bring me into his life.  She was back by the weekend I met Marie.  That was why we stayed at a hotel in Madison. 

I haven't blogged since that weekend.  The weekend after I met Marie, I met Karen at Chris's house.  She is now one of my lovers. This weekend will be the first I have not spent with Chris and Karen, or Chris, Karen, and Marie, since then.  I have not blogged about it because, while I knew I was happy, I could not wrap my head around how I felt, just weeks after long my virginity, to have become part of a polyamorous group.

I now know, among other emotions, that I feel thankful to have been included in such a loving community. I love all three of them, and I can feel they love me.  It's the most wonderful feeling in the world.

I should mention that another person is part of this "family."  Her name is Rose.  She is a graduate student in Chicago and so gets together with them less often, but I have talked with her on the phone several times and she is delightful.  She is also a lot closer to my age.  We hope to get together over Christmas break.  I hope and suspect I'll be just as grateful to have her in my life then as I am now to have Chris, Marie, and Karen!