I am realixing I am one confused individual! I am a little bit drunk right now. So maybe this will be more honest than normal. Excuse any typos, and grammar issues. As I am not in the best mindset to be writing.

 I must be a pervert! I never planned to be? But I am a pervert in the best way! I absolutley love women! From skinny to plump, from white to black! I absolutely adore women! In my mind I find them stronger then me. My father once said, "Do you want to wear high heals to impress men? Do you want to carry a baby for 9 motnhs?" My answer was, "NO!" He responded with, "Well then women are stronger than you!" 

 I will say I go through phases! Phases in whihc I am attracted to sexy mature women. Right now I am going through a phase where I am attracted to sexy black women. The more black the better, like a woman who is pure black like African black is a major turn on. Yet at the same time there is an asian girl at work that has the most sexy legs!? I don't know how such a petite little asian girl can have such muscular calves and thighs, yet be so tiny!? But it is such a turn on!

I am married and I love my wife, but if only she knew how perverted I was. She think s hse knows, but she really doen't! She doesn't know I'd like to fuck her sister and her sexy as young niece! That her best friend who is black; I have fantasized about her naked. That I have fantasies about her niece fucking my ass with a strap on, as I fuck my wife's pussy!

At times I wonder if I am some sick individual! My father when I was 11 pressed his cock in my ass crack claiming, "How I reminded him so much of my mother!" When I was 14 my Mom tried to seduce me in a hot tub. Had I not been so nieve I would have gladly fucked her! These are the things that shaped my life, and I struggle with the fact of whether I am fucked up or not!? In my head I try to justify it as, "Everyone has these thoughts, they just don't want to admit it!"

In a way I struggle, but in a way I realize it is just the true animalistic state of mankind to procreate and expand the species. Yet how do you live in a world of rules, and laws when your animalistic desires drive you so much!

I am married and I try to follow the bullshit rules of religion, even though my animalistic desires plead with me to just fuck, to experience, to taste, to bask in the tasteful juices of a woman, and take her as prey as the beast! It is so hard to remain faithful, when you are surrounded by so much wonderful treasures to taste, feel, and to worship as though sexy female godess'!

Women!? You have no idea how much we love you! You have no idea how much we just want to feel, taste, lick, and devour every inch of you!