Erika. She was my mom's friend. My mom and dad were divorced. She was 36 when I was... not 18. And somehow she knew. Knew I had broken up with my girlfriend. Knew I was this kind of innocent guy... who was horny.. which was what she was looking for. Exactly what she liked. 

So imagine you're this kind of horny kind of innocent guy. And you start getting little text messages like, "Hey stud, nice swim suit, saw you at ur swim meet with your mom." Or "Your mom tells me you and your little gilrfriend broke up.. must make things *hard* for you.." Or "You should come over some time, you know where I live. Really. Come over."

I kind of felt like sex with my ex gf. was this beautiful slightly naughy little secret thing that we did and it was just beautiful and amazing. And we hadnt had that much before she had to move. Erika made it something else. She made it dirty. She made it this kind of slippery wicked thing. She really REALLY like to fuck.. and by fuck I mean fUUUUUUUUUUUCK... Long periods of time. Lube. There I was, like literally pinned down, hard again for the 3rd or 4th tme, and she just kind of had me. Wouldn't let me go. Wouldn't let it go. She was sex addicted and like after something always just a little beyond reach. She gave me Viagra. She fucked me so hard my dick hurt. And we'd do it again. And again the next day. I felt like it was wrong. Like I wanted it to stop, but she kept sending me little notes. Little coaxing messages and Id get hard again. She taught me to lick her. She licked my nuts and gave me like three blowjobs just kneeling in her living room naked one sunday afternoon. 

I feel like it was kind of somehow her. Like she fucked-my-brains-out. Like i feel like I even remember the exactl moment. It is just this erotic out-of-time kind of memory of being there on her bed in her bedroom.. like I didnt even know what day it was. And I had already cum twice? three times? And there we were... I was hard again and my penis was like tight and slippery up her tight cunt and it was like this terrible yet erotic tickling in my whole cock and nuts... like I had cum but couldn't stop... and then it was like my legs were quivering and I could hear my own voice calling out. And I felt myself go past the point of no return-again, right into orgasm-land and I looked over at the mirror door of her closet and saw her riding on top of me and it was like this out of body orgasm experience. Like she fuckng broke me.  

I always feel like im stuck thinking about that, picturing that, trying to re-live that with girls I meet. Like i somehow ejaculated my fucking soul right up her slippery cunt.