I am a faggot, inferior to men, inferior to women. All my life, I have aspired to be more feminine; the closest I can get is faggot. Comforting me in this realisation is the acceptance that I, as a faggot, represent a third sex, anatomically halfway between man and woman, psychologically and behaviourally more woman than man; but sexually deviant, sexually subservient, sexual servile, committed to the fulfilment of the most depraved, the filthiest sexual phantasies of men. I live in subjugation to men. I live to take their cum, their pee, their spit, and their shit. As a cockwhore and a cumslut, I take all cocks, all cum. That is what I am for, why I am here. My only purpose is to be used by men.

I often wear stockings and a garter belt. Sometimes I wear panties, but most often not. The same is true for bras. Most of my life, I kept my hair very long; now I wear a wig sometimes. I often wear makeup. I am not trying to be a woman. I am a faggot, a sissy, a slut, a whore. I am as I appear; I appear as I am. For years now, I have taken phytoestrogen. My dick has always been a clit, rather than a dick. Even partially hard – I never get really hard – which I get only when licking and tonguing yummy shitty buttholes or eating shit, I am only three inches long. My faggy clitty does not need to be any bigger than that. I am a faggot. I suck cock. I get fucked. My little floppy clitty is happy, very happy, being merely that cutest of validation of my third sex.

My body has always been almost hairless, my voice very high, naturally like a girl. I sing counter tenor Getting fucked multiple times daily nearly all my life has made my ass round, my ever-gaping, cum-filled cunt deep between two plump ass cheeks, like the anal whore I am. My oestrogen ensures that my faggy clitty never forgets that it is there only for decoration; kept limp, my little balls tight with cum that awaits sometimes weeks for release; assuring the many men who fuck me that I am not a man at all, just a faggot. The oestrogen also helps my titties to look more like sissy titties, with constantly erect nipples, bigger and pinker areolæ, and fuller breast mounds.

I am a lifelong faggot. That is my life, my destiny. I never had to wonder what I was fated to become. I am a faggot, a sissy. That is all. That is why I conduct my life so sexually recklessly. I have no restraint. I am a dirty, nasty, filthy faggot. I refuse no cock, no cum, ever. Of course, I only do bareback. Of course, I take poz cocks. Much of the time, I am so busy sucking cock, I could care less who is fucking me. I just want that dick, that cum. If men mention their HIV status at all, it is usually just before they cum, or after they have fucked me. I am a sissy faggot bitch. Of course, I will take your hot poz cum.

I worship cock. My devotion is full-time, my service without compromise. Life does not give itself to one who tries to keep all of its advantages at once. I live only for cock, for cum. The pee, and the shit, especially, are the having-my-cake-and-eating-it, too. I love them. I love all that defiles me, all that is unclean, all that is profane. The more obscene, the more indecent, the more perverted, the better.