Well, I've been on this site just over a month and I've met some great people. I certainly feel a little more comfortable opening up about my desires now.

I'm still yet to make a real connection with anyone yet, but I'm enjoying taking everything slowly.

As I've already mentioned, one of my biggest desires is to be controlled by a strong dominant woman, to be guided into pushing my sexual boundaries much further.

I have experimented with a little anal, orgasm denial, and CBT in the past, and I did enjoy it somewhat. There's just something about a woman deriving pleasure from an ordeal that I'm going through that gives me a sense of satisfaction, and makes me want to push myself further. The thought of a woman commanding me to consume my own issue for instance, simply for her pleasure is a somewhat thrilling thought as well, purely because it's so counterintuitive for me to do such a revolting thing.

There are so many avenues I'd like to explore, but I don't feel I have the courage to without help or guidance at this stage.

An ultimate fantasy of mine is to be a long term sub to a wonderful woman. I'm not sure that'll ever happen, or if I'd be ready for such a thing in real life, but you can never say never I suppose.

I'm still not ready to photograph, cam, or to message people off the site at the moment I'm afraid, much to the frustration of a few people I've been in contact with up to now. I would need to build a lot of trust with a person for that.

The thought of just being at the beck and call of a woman if only online. To be there ready to carry out her instructions to the best of my ability. Waiting eagerly for her to command me to carry out tasks at her leisure, purely for her entertainment and pleasure is just a sublime thought.

As always, if anyone is interested in taking possession of (And I'll be honest), a largely inexperienced sub, with a fair number of limits at this stage, and a few anxieties, then I sincerely hope you'll get in touch. Perhaps if you're someone just learning the ropes of femdom, we could make an interesting pair, who knows. I'm happy to hear from anyone, and I'm happy to hear what I can do to make the situation pleasurable for you, if I can. :)

Anyway, thanks everyone for being so great on here, and I look forward to hearing from some of you hopefully.

Big kisses, Peace & Love,

                                  AppleBlossom xx