As those who have read my earlier blog entries know, I am a virgin living in a small town. I really have yet to meet a boy my own age who interests me. In fact, I'm more attracted to older men. I also have some kinky fantasies I'm hoping to explore. Because of the size of my town, I don't think I should get involved with someone like that there.

 

So, after looking at number of sites, I decided this one offered the best way to meet older, experienced, fun men. This site has the advantage that you can really judge its members not by what they write about themselves, all social media sites have that, but by what they post in their galleries and as favorites.  That tells you more about them than they probably realize when adding that content.

 

Nonetheless, I had trouble deciding who, among the various men who approached me, would be best to become involved with.  To narrow the field, I decided to do a questionnaire.  As a result of this, I was able to narrow the field to three candidates, men named Edward, Josh, and Chris. Chris's questionnaire response added a twist, because it was completed by his lover Marie, who offered to facilitate the whole affair, with her direct involvement if I wanted.  Apparently, this is something they have done together before.

 

It was a difficult choice.  Each finalist had unique qualities that made him desireable.  Also, while I have heard nothing further from Edward, the other two continued to lobby me after becoming finalists.

 

I have decided, finally, to choose Chris.  Like Edward, he has a broad experience in things kinky.  Like Josh, he knows just how, with just his words, to reach my sexual submissiveness and turn me molten.  Ultimately, it was something Chris's lover Marie wrote to me that made the decision conclussive: "Do you not think it likely that you will want to develop a complete, loving relationship with your first lover?"

 

I should mention that Chris and Marie were the only finalists to even bring up love.  I hate to admit that I had not even included that in my consideration.  Once they raised the issue, however, I realized it's prime importance in all of this.  I think I could fall in love with any of the finalists, but only Chris (and Marie) suggested any desire or intent to fall in love with me.  

 

This works especially well because Chris lives in the same state as me. (So does Marie.) If we do "develop a complete, loving relationship," then it won't be as long distance as it would have been with the other two finalists.  The fact that Chris lives full time in the same state as me was the final decisive factor.

 

 

I look forward to getting to know Chris better.  I have been encouraged by several correspondents to continue blogging about this experience.  If Chris does not mind, I probably will.

 

Thank you all for your kind interest and warm wishes during this process.