6 AM - WAKE UP SISSY!

My alarm goes off at full blast first thing in the morning - right now it's "Shake It Off" by one of my absolute Goddesses Taylor Swift. I always blush as I sit up in my tiny single mattress on the floor and feel the soft cold squish of last nights diapers. Before I'm allowed to change I have to get up and make breakfast - plain oatmeal with strained vegetables and castor oil. Then I get to strip off my old diapers and throw them out, shower off and make myself clean, then dry off and immediately diaper myself back up with 2 fresh abdl pampers.

 7 AM - BRAINWASHING

Once I'm clean and awake I have a few hours before work and I always use them responsibly working on being a better sissy loser. At least 2 hours should be spent first thing in morning worshiping Superior Female Celebrity Goddesses. On my knees in front of my laptop I watch music video after music video of Miss Katy Perry, countless interviews with Taylor Swift and Arianna Grande, clips of Princess Miley Cyrus at her shows. I love stare in adoration while I slurp and suck on one of my black dildos, enjoying flavored condoms as a special snack while I melt my brain with pop music.

 9 AM  - WORK BITCH

Sigh, time to work. No more adoring Celebrity Goddesses, I just get to think about them all day long while I toil away at work. Still wearing diapers under my work pants, I walk to work in my uniform. A long day of flipping burgers and doing menial work is all I have to look forward to. Thankfully the radio stations play nothing but the very best pop music by my Goddesses. Since my fat padded butt is in diapers, I dont't have to take any bathroom breaks at all. My double padding and plastic panties prevent any and all leaks.

 12 Noon - TUMMY ACHES

By noon my breakfast of strained veg, oatmeal and castor oil comes back to haunt me, and the end of my work shift is always full of cramps and aches as I fight the urge to make poopies. Even though my diapers (usually damp from pee by now) would hold it all in, the thought of finishing my shift stinking like a filthy toilet stall fills me with shame and fear. My supervisor, 5 years younger than me and extremely hot with piercings and tattoos, already thinks I'm kind of gross and stupid. She always looks at me with a look of slight contempt, and I"ve seen her and my coworkers looking at the crinkly bulge and smirking. If she ever caught me shitting myself at work, she"d fire me on the spot and tell everyone present exactly why.

5 PM - WALK HOME

Finally done work I walk home alone, trying to hold in my mess until I make it home. There's nothing worse than waddling home in a stinky mess. I sometimes stop at the store to buy more flavored condoms to suck.

6 PM - SUPPERTIME

After finally relieving myself at home, it's time for another lonely night indoors alone, sitting in my messy diaper like a loser. I make myself supper usually raman noodles and strained pees or carrots, blended in my food blender and dump it all into my toilet bowl. That would be super disgusting if it weren't for the fact that since living at my apartment, the toilet has never been used once. I cleaned it out thoroughly long ago and have never used it for bathroom purposes. All my dinners at home are eaten out of the bowl like a dog (so as a diapered sissy loser I keep the toilet clean enough to eat out of. It causes me to get lots of acne but it"s what I deserve.

7 PM - MORE BRAINWASHING 

After supper it's back to looking at Celebrity Goddesses. I try to bow in front of picture slide shows of Miss Katy Perry"s feet for as long as I can, and usually hump my pillow through my squishy dirty diaper while I suck my dildos to the beat of her music.

8 PM -  PORN AND SISSY LOSER SEX ED

Before bed I look at as much sissy loser porn as possible. Big black cocks, Celebrity Feet, diaper loser captions and stories,  censored sissy porn and more. Since I am an ugly virgin who will never have sex, all I should be allowed to know about sex is pathetic disgusting things like dirty panties and socks. I used to have video game online accounts and online gaming friends, but I know I spend absolutely all my spare money on Financial Dominatrix porn and cam sessions with live Findoms. I have wasted thousands of dollars on dirty used panties and socks alone. I hope to go broke and in debt with an empty apartment full of dirty Superior Womens underwear. I don't even jerk off since I love locking my cock up in steel chastity and mailing the key to Dommes online. Right now my key is around the ankle of a girl in the UK who doesn"t give a fuck about me and who might not send it back.

9 PM BEDTIME

Night light plugged in, I get into my single mattress on the floor in my now thoroughly soiled diapers and night time leak-proof plastic pants. Smelling like a loser and feeling completely pathetic, I snuggle up with a cheap blow up doll I consider my girlfriend underneath my only blanket - a thin raggety Justin Beiber blanket. Sissy diaper losers go to bed super early while other people are out having a good time. I can't wait to wake up and hear Shake It Off and start my day over!