When people hear you're bi, they often say "When did you know?" or "When did you first experience another guy?"  Most guys watch a porn movie and comment about a guy's cock, but don't really go any further.  What happens when the guy's cock on screen equally excites you?

I suspect there are MANY guys who secretly fantasize about it, but never do anything about it, becuase of the stigma.

When I was in college I made a friend I'll call "Bob" who was very openly gay and made no bones about the fact that he enjoyed sex with other guys.  College is a great time to experiment and he certainly experienced it to the fullest that way.  Sure, I had a good time but I kept it confined to women becuase I didn't want anyone to think I was "Gay" - not realizing there can be a middle ground.

My friend became a lifelong friend, and we lived near each other after college.  And without fail he kept on telling me I should try it, I should come to one of his parties, what's the harm?, etc.  For whatever reason I never wanted to give in, even though the idea interested me. 

At one point in my late 20's, I started doing a little more looking on my own, beyond porn, and I put a personal ad up on craigslist, looking to hook up and experiment.  I did meet a guy at hotel room, and beforehand there was full discolosure that I had never done anything and was looking to experiment - but I had NO idea how far I wanted to go and he was cool with that.  As it turns out I was so nervous that all we ended up doing was jacking off to porn, and I didn't even watch him cum.  I came, but I didn't really enjoy it because I was so nervous.  There was the grand experiment, I proved that I wasn't "Gay."

Years passed, my friend continued to good naturedly hound me (though a bit less often, I think I was starting to wear him down, hah!) I was into my early 30's and one time he did ask me and just like that I said to him "You know... Sure, why the hell not."  I didn't tell him about my experience in my late 20's, but I figured this time maybe it would be different, he's be someone I know at the party, and I could just dissolve into to the crowd.  He was all lit up when I said yes, and told me I could do as little or as much as I wanted to - his friends were all pretty open.  But there were two rules to follow:

The first point made total sense.  The second point unnerved me to no end.  I actually said I would go and broke my promise about 3 times becuase I couldn't deal with it.  It got to the point where my friend said "How about you ask me when you're ready?"  About 6 months later, I asked and he told me that he was hosting a party the next day, on a long (labor day) weekend.

When I got there, I wandered around in the kitchen for a bit taking a lot of deep breaths, waiting to take my clothes off and enter.  After a few minutes, a guy came in, his partially deflated but shiny with cum, and soaked with sweat.  He said "came in to get a drink!" I said "Had a good time I guess?" He said "Hell yeah!  Are you new?  You must be... there can't be any reason you're not inside..." and I said "Yeah... a little nervous" he said "well, just go in and watch... No one is going to make you do anything..." and with that he left to go back.

So, I stripped.  Put my clothes in the bedroom with everyone else's.  I went into the living room, and while I didn't stop to count there were about 10 guys total there, all undressed and doing various things.  Some were sucking, some were stroking others, and there was also some full-out penetration going on at the couch.  OK, I started to get excited, and went over to a chair near the couch and sat down to watch the 2 guys going at it.  I sat with my legs spread so I could stroke, and I can't say it wasn't good.  I was having a real enjoyable time just slowly stroking my cock and watching the action.  The guys were positioned with their asses towards me, so I could see the balls and cock of the guy getting fucked hanging down, and the balls of the fucker wetly slapping on his ass.  

Someone came over and said to me "Are you new?" and I told him yeah I was Bob's friend.  He said with a smile, "AhHa, he told us a nervous newbie would be coming!" I was a bit embarssed and if you can believe it I actually blushed!  But he said "Feel like getting sucked?  I'll break you in if you want."  Next thing you know I was hearing myself say "Yes!" VERY eagerly.  I surprised myself, but I guess a certain part of me (take a guess which, LOL) knew what I wanted.

He got down on his knees and I kept my legs open, he started sucking my balls and I was moaning my head off.  He licked up my shaft, pushing his tongue into the slit of my head, sending shocks up my spine, before opening his mouth and plunging his head completely down on me.  I almost came right then and there, but he pulled off and went back to my balls, putting them in his mouth and sucking them like a piece of candy... first one, then the other, then both... then back to the first, repeating over and over, occasionally reaching a hand up and rubbing my head, nearly causing me almost fall off the chair.  When he did that, my ass cheeks would clench up and my head would just throb uncontrolably.  Was it better than a blowjob by a woman?  I'm not sure I could be objective, maybe becuase I had it built up so much in my head (no pun intended).  All I know is that I let my head just fall back in the chair and I closed my eyes, and started rubbing my nipples while getting this amazing blowjob.  I felt like I was getting closer after a while, and I opened my eyes, and looked around a bit... next to me was a guy, very well hung, less than a foot from my face jacking himself off like crazy while watching me.  I never thought I could "help" someone like that, and when I saw the precum dripping from his head I went "Ohhh! Look at that!" and it set him off.  He started to shoot and was aiming - yes you guessed it - right at my face.  I got totally hosed down, at least 8 shots came from his cock, all landing on me.

It didn't bother me in the least, in fact I liked it.  Feeling all those waves of hot goo triggered my orgasm.  When my new friend who was sucking me realized I was about to cum, he pulled his mouth off my sac and put it on my head and the heat from his mouth completed the trigger - I started to cream like I felt like I never had before... I don't know how much I came becuase it was completely swallowed.  I sat there for what felt like hours (turns out it was only minutes) totally calm and at peace with everything.  My friend said "Wow... that was intense!  I can see you've been waiting for this for a long time... Care to return the favor?"  I had never given a blow job, but given all that was going on and how comfortable I was made to feel, I decided why not?

I've run out of time... I'll finish this later in another entry!