I'm a bisexual woman, but I lean more emotionally towards women. Some have even mistaken me for lesbian and probably have no idea that I am bisexual. In my about me, I mentioned that I give roses to women and thorns to men. I don't really do the opposite. I do if a woman wants it, but I never give roses to men. So why exactly?

Well, I didn't grow up too close to boys. No, I was not raped by my father or an older man. I love my dad and I won't have anyone say shit about him. No, I was raised in a school where there was division between the boys and girls. The guys believed we had cooties and we girls saw them as stupid, so we stayed within our circles. When I moved to junior high, I became a bit more open minded and began hanging out with guys. I went on a few dates, but having spent a long time with girls, I became a bit more emotionally attached to my own gender.

Okay, the real problem was in my last year of highschool. I finally gave in to this guy and decided to hit third base. Yeah, I didn't really enjoy it. I liked his body, but I didn't like him on top of me, as if he were trying to assault me. So yeah, I eventually found out he was cheating on me and I broke up with him. I then moved to college and more shit happened. Guys pretty much just wanted sex. I did with a few guys, but it was obvious that they weren't after serious relationships. I pretty much started hating men afterwards and saw them as a separate species. It felt like grade school all over again, to the point I even joined a radical feminist group. 

Despite this, I still couldn't help but find myself fascinated by men. I loved their rugged shapes and forms, but what I enjoyed most was seeing them get dominated. I liked being on top without having any emotional attachment towards them. I enjoyed seeing them wimper as I pretty much did whatever I want with them.

I broke away from the radical group and have a calmer perspective for men. I'm friends with a bunch and I'm not a bitch to them. However, for those that just want one night, I'm pretty much a bitch that makes them both enjoy and regret going to bed with me.