This is an addition to my About Me section. I've probably said some of this in previous posts, but all but one are from 2011 and don't really count.

So I already mentioned how I felt self-loathing and shame. This was from being called a sissy when I was young, then I was looking at women too much in puberty, then it was because I was called a wimp in high school for not weight lifting and not getting laid, and in general were also bisexual feelings and being part of a Christian family. These things sucked but I can relate to more users here.

Now I have no self-hate and am a deist. What's that, and why am I mentioning it on a porn blog? Because I want to give hope to those maddening themselves with Christian thought. As a desit, I believe in a Creator who gave us a Natural Law to follow. Unlike Christian Natural Law, we are to treat others as they want to be treated, and to uphold the sanctity of life. In other words, stealing is still bad, but it's because someone else wouldn't want to be stolen from. This change has given me great peace of mind. Of course there' more to it, but I'm being brief so I can get to the parts were I link dirty stuff.

I'm hoping to find a woman to have regular sex with. My fantasy is being with an older but attractive woman who would be patient with me and show me the ropes. All sex of mine has been surrounded by anxiety and I need to get away from that. Besides, being bi I can have my hand in both cookie jars as long as my partner(s) allow it. It's just finding some. Living in a small town sucks. Old families band together into cults, pretty much, and they'll keep track of anything weird to them. Not a great atmosphere.

I've dabbled in the idea of the sissy feitsh, but I don't think I'd ever do it. I'm not into the mean degradation and I'd look like absoulte garbage in drag. I used to crossdress actually, but I grew more and now that I'm 22 I look silly in drag. Still, the idea of serving hung menand being fucked silly is appealing. This brings me to another thing. I've wanted a more androgynous look for years, but I've never known how. Please message or comment if you have comments on this or anything else in this post.