Have been taking female hormones for about a week now. Already seeing changes, since there isn't much of any testosterone to interfere. Skin's smoothing right out, tits starting, butt/hips are even bigger. Have been jerking off only like once a week, but fucking myself with toys almost every day.

I feel like these personal changes are, at least in part, about my trying to build something resembling a non-heterosexual identity.  Being bi is always tricky, because declaring a sexual orienation is a politically polarizing thing, as a lot of folks here know, and bi/pansexuals don't usually have the support of either gay or straight communities, as they're often considered traitors to both. Since I'm very masculine looking and am in a monogamous committed relationship with a cis-female, it's just assumed that I'm cis-male hetero unless I speak out otherwise. It's a hetero privilege thing; it's like I don't feel comfortable talking about my romantic background with people I haven't explicitly come out to. I think I want to taint my visible gender identity, to get it out in the open, to push it just to the point where I'm sufficiently androgynous that I don't quite pass for a hetero cis-male and stop there; I don't really want to be a girl, but I also don't really want to be completely male either. I'm aiming for somewhere about halfway between, a nonbinary gender identity. Think they call that genderqueer; a visible sign that it shouldn't be assumed I'm straight, without having to make it an issue in conversation.

Anyway, rimmed my wife's ass for the first time last night after edging her for a while and getting her to come thrice. It actually tasted sweet, which is not entirely unexpected, since she smells like flowers all the time. She didn't mind but just didn't know what to make of the sensation.

We talked about my growing subbiness after that, and she expressed a willingness to fuck me with toys when I wanted. Also told her about the harness I got for her. We'll see how that goes.