I'm now officially a bitch.

I did it! It took me quite some time gathering myself and also several drinks to loosen up my boundaries. I had loads of thoughts and feelings going in my head during and after it. I felt disgusted, hot, horny, dirty, regretful and happy. Like.. "Oh god what have I done?!" It was huge load of feels to go sleep with. Except after I woke up I was so fucking happy that I did it and I kinda wanted more :D I blame the self loathing on the feeling that you get when your buzz starts to go away and you are starting to get bit sober.

It was surprisingly difficult to position myself so he could have proper access and grip (so I have some nice scratches on my back now >.> )  I had to help him to find the entrance (bit similar like when being in bed with some guys >;D )but almost immediately when his tip hits the entrance it went like BOOM. It really caught me by surprise that how big and how fast his penis can grow. And how fast they actually pump when they get it in. I kinda came really fast because he was hitting the sweetspot and I was extremely turned on (I'm pretty sensitive so it's not that hard to make me cum to be honest ). Now that I think about it, it's good thing there are no neighbours close because I must have been moaning and squaling somewhat loud :D

And I took the knot. And I am proud of it! I didn't think about it much before it was too late. At least I knew that it could happen so I didn't panic that much. It hurt just a bit. Nothing more than slight discomfort but it was worth it because it kept rubbing on my sweetspot to. I think we were locked for like 5 minutes instead of those 15-45minutes that is told on the internet.

Maybe one of the best things was that I didn't have to think about condoms! I would be so pregnant if we could interbreed :D

(I lost my 'virginity' last saturday and wrote this up earlier this week but I actually started to hesitate about posting this here because the lack of beasty stuff so I might get banned or something but yolo!)