For the past while I've been trying to break this addiction I've formed to feminizing myself to fuck black men. I've tried so hard, quitting porn, getting hobbies, and even having sex with women. But do you want to know something? I couldnt give it up. Not one bit. It was constantly in my mind, my fantasies, and my dreams. And after last night, I can finally admit that I've been broken. 

Last night I went out to a local club with a girl I'm dating. An hour or so later, she ends up leaving, but I was still looking to stay and get a little tipsy. I order myself a shot and after I get it, a black man just takes it and downs it right in front of me. Needless to say I was angry, but he laughed and said that it was a mistake, and that he'll make it up to me. He led me back to a booth with a couple of other guys, around 7 or 8 black guys, but there were another 2 white guys. He gets me to sit down, and he tells the group that he took my drink and that he was going to make it up to me. The group laughed, and gave me some beer, and eventually I started to laugh and have a good time. About an hour later, the man who stole my drink started to get a little handsy with me, at first saying that he didnt mean it, but soon enough e starts grabbing my hands and putting them on his cock. I started to get into it, I was pretty drunk at this point, and I think my old habits were influencing me. He took me outside behind the club, and forced me to my knees, took out his cock, and told me to suck. And oh boy did I. I completely let my passion take control, and he used me as his own personal slut, and I loved every second of it. He came on my face, slapped my ass, and told me to get off on my own.

 And here I am. After last night, I've finally decided that the feelings I felt before were completely right. I want to go down this path completely, I want to live my life just for last nights feeling. Im never been more excied in my life