I've been meaning to do this for a while. Maybe I'll actually keep this up. This is about my obsession with cum and what I've been doing about it lately.

First thing, I've always been really into cum shots but it's only been the last couple of years that I've connected that with an interest in cock. From very early on, when I first was able to get a hold of porno, cumshots were always my favourite part. When I was old enough, I got videos of cumshot compilations. The internet has been great to me in that respect.

Like I said, that was the state of things until just a couple of years ago when I started to realize that the cocks doing the cumming were just as hot to me as the women getting cummed on. This was only a wrinkle of an idea until the first time I jerked off with another guy online. From then on, I've been hooked. Now, this isn't convenient for me since I'm in a long-term relationship with a woman, but it's not been impossible. I developed my collection of porn featuring cocks and jerked with guys. Sometimes on cam but mostly just watching. 

That wasn't enough to sate my obssession. I now had a hunger for cum that expanded past watching cumshots. Now I wanted to taste it. So the next thing I turned to was eatingmy own cum. I still do this. It's really hot and I love the taste of my cream after a nice long jerk session. But that still hasn't been enough. I decided I wanted to try sucking a cock. That was maybe 8 or 9 months ago. I chatted with guys about it but chickened out over and over again.

I finally got up the courage and had a guy over during the summer. I've now sucked three cocks total. In my next entry, I'll detail the first experience in full. 

But the truth is, I want more. What I really want to find is a friend or two who I can reliably go to for a stiff cock and a load of cum. Maybe someone who reads this can help me out.