Sooooo, I've done something I thought I wouldn't like. I dressed up as a girl. Remember "The giant" from my last post? Well he decided that I would be "hot" as a "sissy girl". It's been few weeks now. One day he just brought some girly clothes to my house. Socks, stockings, panties, bras and couple of wigs. The giant pretty much forced me to put those on me and after soon I was all dressed up. Do you know how humiliating it is to dress as a girl? Quite, I can tell you. But, my black "giant" was hornier than ever. We meet only once a week, but every time he fucks me, I'm totally dominated and fucked. My ass is raw, my spirit is broken and the giant is one stop closer dominating my entire life. 

Now, when I dress up as a sissy-bitch, The Giant forgets all the manners. All the respect to me as a human being. I'm just and only his sissy-bottom-bitch and to my horror, I like it. I love to give all the control to him. I love to surrender to his big, black, cock. Today I even used inflatable butt-plug at work, as per The Giants request. After I got home, I changed the butt-plug to inflatable dildo and walked - ankwardly - to the Giants house. It was over 4 kilometer walk and I came in to my pants two times, before I arrived at my "masters" home. (He wan't me to use the title, and I'm not complaining).

When I arrived the giant's home, he pushed me inside his house, closed the door, pushed me against the wall in the corridor, lubed my ass and fucked me - ofcourse after removing the inflatable dildo. It was so humiliating, so humiliating that I didn't even get hard-one. But I loved every second of it. The giant pounded me like an jackhammer, my ass burned, my vision sparkled and my spirit surrendered. I was just this limp-dicked bottom-bitch under him, dressed in girls clothes, hoping to be female so I could give him everything.

So, after series of events and evenings, the Giants made me want to surrender. He made me want to be his sissy-white-boy, something I never wanted to be before. Now I use girls panties, shave myself (again) and I have stopped all sexual contact with women. I love  brutal black schlong in my ass and I love submitting to the giant. I love him taking control of my life and I love the fact that Finland has allowed the gay marriages now. I think I want him. I think I want to be his bottom-bitch for the rest of my life.

I hope he says "yes"...